Q&A with the extraordinary

Written By: Michael D. McClellan |

West Virginia’s sweetheart may have moved to Nashville way back in 1978, but her love of the Mountain State runs deep, her connection to it unbreakable, the memories of it fueling some of her most personal work. Her life leading up to that point was dotted with prescient moments suggesting a wildly successful career ahead, even if stardom seemed like a long shot at the time. Kathy Mattea knew that going in. Musicians crash and burn in Nashville every day. Some cling to their dreams by fronting mediocre honky-tonk bands, holding down day jobs while churning through weepy sets of country-music standards on the weekends. Others become studio musicians, a lucky few earning a living doing what they love, some occasionally going on tour, their careers spent in the shadow of stardom. Rarer still are the ones who break through to become stars themselves. Those that do are as scarce as hen’s teeth. Kathy Mattea knew all of that the day she pulled out of her parent’s driveway in Cross Lanes.

“My mom didn’t want me to go,” Mattea says. “She didn’t see a future in it. She wanted me to stay in school and get my degree.”

Mattea left home with her gut and her guitar and the knowledge that she might never sign with a major label, that she might never hear herself on the radio, that she might never score a hit song. That was the chance she was willing to take. She was never in it for the money, never driven by the fame. She simply had to know. Fast-forward: The back-to-back CMA Female Vocalist of the Year honors, the two Grammys, and four No. 1 hit singles are the byproduct of heeding the call, of treating her guitar like a divining rod and following the vibrations all the way to Music City, U.S.A. Accolades aren’t why she rolled the dice. Stardom and validation are two different things. Kathy Mattea was birthed into this world to perform, and while she instinctively knew her talent was real, she needed Nashville to prove herself right.

Kathy Mattea

“Nashville was my dream. It got to the point where it was now or never. If I didn’t go, then I’d spend the rest of my life wondering, ‘What if?’ I didn’t want to have that rolling around in the back of my mind.”

The West Virginia University dropout didn’t arrive with the luxury of built-in connections to country music’s elite – she hadn’t been discovered at a trade show when she was 11, the way that Barbara Mandrell had been discovered by Chet Adkins, nor was she related to a Nashville superstar, as was the case with Crystal Gale, whose sister was the legendary Loretta Lynn. Mattea simply showed up and took a job as a tour guide at the Country Music Hall of Fame.

“Like everybody else, I had to pay the bills,” she says. “It was all part of the journey.”

Mattea had always been allergic to bullshit, which meant that she’d never bullshit herself. She was ambitious, yes, but she also had common sense. There were no guarantees. She gave herself a year to make something happen. If she failed, then she would beat a path back to Morgantown.

“School was the fallback plan. I was going to pour everything into country music first, because I couldn’t imagine a career doing anything else.”

The West Virginia that Kathy Mattea grew up in was blue collar, pro-union, and heavily reliant on coal. There was an underdog mentality that permeated the state, one that went back generations. It’s a mentality that still exists today. I know because, like Kathy Mattea, I am a West Virginian. Since the 35th state was formed, we’ve largely let outsiders, folks who don’t know Charleston from Charles Town, define us. Their rube jokes and unrelenting focus on the state’s most impoverished and uneducated has somehow trumped its knee-buckling beauty, neighborly people, and singular history.

Kathy Mattea grew up the antithesis of West Virginia’s hillbilly stereotype – middle class, cultured, whip-smart – and yet she’s endured the slights her whole life. There’s a defensiveness that bounds West Virginians together, and Mattea is no exception to the rule. She’s proud of her state. That’s one reason she’s been a longtime supporter of Mountain Stage.

“It’s part of my DNA at this point,” Mattea says with the laugh. “It’s like a second home.”

Conceived by Larry Groce in 1983, Mountain Stage is a two-hour radio show produced by West Virginia Public Broadcasting and distributed worldwide by National Public Radio. In 1989, when R.E.M. was one of the biggest bands on the planet, it only gave three performances to promote its Out of Time LP, and one of those was on Mountain Stage. (Saturday Night Live and MTV Unplugged being the other two.) That’s right. Michael Stipe, Peter Buck & Co. rolled into Charleston and performed on Mountain Stage when it was refusing to play anywhere else.

Kathy Mattea performs live on Mountain Stage.

Mountain Stage is a great advertisement for our state,” Mattea says. “Larry is such an ambassador. I’ve been connected to the show for a long time, and I’m very proud of that relationship.”

Mattea and Mountain Stage go hand-in-hand like coal mining and West Virginia, topics that are never far from her mind. She knows full well the labor strife and economic struggles of her home state, including some of its most infamous moments.

“Who can grow up in the southern part of the state and not know about Matewan?” she asks rhetorically. “What happened there was so sensational that they eventually made a movie about it. The Matewan Chief of Police was a man named Sid Hatfield, whose family was one-half of the Hatfield-McCoy feud. It was a pretty big deal.”

The Matewan Massacre, on May 19, 1920, had all the elements of a high-noon showdown: On one side, the heroes, a pro-union sheriff and mayor; on the other, the dastardly henchmen of the Baldwin-Felts Detective Agency. Within 15 minutes, ten people were dead – seven detectives, two miners and the mayor. Three months later, the conflict in the West Virginia coal town had escalated to the point where martial law was declared and federal troops had to intervene.

The granddaughter of two West Virginia miners, Mattea grew up hearing her family’s own stories; of strikes, of picket lines, of miners being paid in scrip that could only be exchanged in the company stores owned by the employers. Years later, horrified by the 2006 explosion and collapse at the Sago mine that left 12 miners dead, she produced one of her most ambitious albums, the 2008 masterpiece, Coal.

“That album really changed my life in a lot of ways,” Mattea says. “There was so much I didn’t know until I started asking questions. Trust me, I paid attention to the retelling of those family stories that I might not have listened to when I was younger.”

The reception for Coal was resounding, both critically and personally. It garnered Mattea a Grammy nomination for Best Traditional Folk Album.

“I had to get out of the way and let the songs tell the story. Once I did that, everything flowed.”

Kathy Mattea has always been smart.

From a young age, her mind operated on a different level than the other kids in her school. She comprehended words more quickly, and her mathematical problem solving was well ahead of others her age. In fact, she was double-promoted in an effort to keep her engaged. As she got older, Mattea found it harder to find things in common with the other kids. It wasn’t until she discovered music that she felt like she belonged.

“The music kids became my tribe,” Mattea says.

Her guitar became the great equalizer, the thing that stripped away all of the insecurities and bridged the gap between a young Kathy Mattea and everyone else. She also got into local theatre, another place that felt like home. Standing onstage, free from the pressure of having to hold a conversation about something she had no interest in, Mattea could let her guard down and simply be herself.

“It was liberating. I felt at home on a stage. I guess that’s one reason I was so driven to pursue music.”

Mattea enrolled at WVU as a physics, chemistry, and engineering major, but by then music was her world. She joined a bluegrass band, wrote some songs, recorded some demos, and dreamed of making it big in Nashville. When the co-writer in the band decided to make that leap, Mattea followed suit, dropping out of school against her parent’s wishes.

Kathy Mattea

“To them, I was giving up a sure thing,” Mattea says. “I was sacrificing my future to take a shot at something that, in their minds, wasn’t going to work out. There were more than a few conversations over that decision.”

Mattea made the move anyway. Got that job as a tour guide. Cut demos with her writing partner. Eventually, it was that partner, Mickey, who grew disenchanted with the whole Nashville scene and went back to school.

Mattea stuck it out.

“Mickey leaving meant that I was on my own in every way,” she says. “It forced me to commit on a whole other level.”

Mattea started having voice problems, so she quit giving tours and took a desk job with an insurance company. Eventually, a record producer named Bryon Hill discovered her, and Mercury Records signed her to a contract. On March 22, 1984, her self-titled debut album was released. Five years to the day after Mattea rolled into town with a mattress strapped to the top of her car, she released her first record.

“It was a huge deal,” Mattea says. Street Talk eventually reached No. 25 on the Hot Country Songs charts. “It was an unbelievable feeling to turn on the radio and hear my song being played.”

Her second album, From My Heart, was released in 1985. It produced the chart singles It’s Your Reputation Talkin’, He Won’t Give In, and Heart of the Country, which peaked at numbers 34, 22, and 46, respectively.

Kathy Mattea – Photo Courtesy James Minchin

“It was exciting and frustrating at the same time,” Mattea says. “I had a record deal, I was getting air play, but I didn’t have that hit song to get over the hump.”

That was about to change.

Mattea’s third album, 1986’s Walk the Way the Wind Blows, was a critical and commercial breakthrough. Four singles were released from the album, and all for reached the top 10 of the country music charts between 1986 and 1987: Love at the Five and Dime, Walk the Way the Wind Blows, You’re the Power, and Train of Memories. One of the songs – Walk the Way the Wind Blows – earned Mattea her first Grammy nomination, for Best Female Country Vocal Performance.

“The Grammy nomination was flattering, and a great, great honor,” she says. “More than anything, it helped to validate everything about my decision to pursue a music career in the first place. I felt like I belonged.”

On the heels of that Grammy nom came Mattea’s fourth album, Untasted Honey, and with it, her first No. 1 single, Goin’ Gone. The follow-up single, Eighteen Wheels and a Dozen Roses, which is about a truck driver named Charlie who is retiring after thirty years to spend more time with his wife, also climbed to No. 1. Untold Stories and Life as We Knew It were also released from the album, with both reaching the No. 4 position on the country charts. Eighteen Wheels and a Dozen Roses earned Mattea multiple awards, including the 1988 Academy of Country Music Awards’ Single of the Year and Song of the Year.

Kathy Mattea had not only gotten over the hump, she was suddenly a bona fide country music star.

“An overnight success years in the making,” she says with a laugh. “I was suddenly famous, and taking that big ride. You always imagine what that might be like, but then it happens and you’re trying to figure things out on the fly. It was a crazy time.”

Kathy Mattea

Something even more profound happened in Mattea’s life around this time: On February 14, 1988, she married songwriter Jon Vezner. The pair had met when Mattea was living upstairs at Wrensong, Vezner’s publisher at the time. He’d see her in the hallway on occasion. One morning Mattea’s car battery was dead, so Vezner played the role of good Samaritan and jumped her. The two have been together ever since.

In 1989, Mattea released her fifth album, Willow in the Wind. The first two singles, Come from the Heart and Burnin’ Old Memories, also topped the country charts, but it was Vezner’s incredibly personal, deeply poignant Where’ve You Been that earned Mattea her first Grammy Award, this for Best Female Country Performance. Where’ve You Been also took home the 1989 Academy of Country Music Awards’ Song of the Year honors. A red-hot Kathy Mattea also won the first of back-to-back CMA Female Vocalist of the Year awards. A year later, her compilation album, A Collection of Hits, was certified platinum. The brainy, ballsy girl from Cross Lanes had conquered the country music world.

“That period in my life was a whirlwind. Things happen so fast, and everything is so surreal. You know it’s not going to last forever. You try your best to enjoy the ride.”

Her 1991 album, Time Passes By, proved to be Mattea’s most-daring, least-commercial work, a collection of songs that celebrates her many musical influences, from bluegrass of West Virginia to folk music of Scotland, where she traveled to record with heralded Scottish singer/songwriter Dougie MacLean. Coming off the immense success of the previous two years, Mattea easily could have played it safe and stayed within Nashville’s accepted parameters. By cutting Time Passes By, she made a bold statement about refusing to stagnate, and proved she was willing to make the ultimate career gamble – that the same country establishment that embraced her might just as quickly discard her.

“I’m very proud of that album,” Mattea says, reflecting on the critical reception it received. “There was a real honesty about Dougie’s music that inspired me. I didn’t worry about making a commercial album, or trying to duplicate an album that I’d already made.”

Despite the lack of radio-ready songs, Time Passes By became her third gold album. Her next two albums, Lonesome Standard Time (1992), and Walking Away a Winner (1994) were also certified RIAA gold.

“It was a good run. Looking back now, I think I appreciate it more than when I was actually charting and winning awards. Time has a way of changing perspective.”

Kathy Mattea has battled through her share of adversity since that rocket ship ride to the pinnacle of her profession. In June, 1992, Mattea was required to undergo surgery on her vocal cords. She bounced back two years later with her first Christmas album, Good News, which won the Grammy Award for Best Southern, Country or Bluegrass Gospel Album. The joy was short-lived; Mattea frequently found herself at odds with her mother, who seemed inexplicably hellbent on making her life miserable. Little did realize the darkness slowly unfolding.

“My mom, at the height of my career, told me I’d changed, and basically did everything but disown me,” Mattea says. “It wasn’t a public thing. There was so much anger when I would come home to visit. It turns out that it was an early sign of Alzheimer’s. It cut me to my knees, but I just kept going. I was working harder than ever, and I wasn’t taking care of myself. My voice paid the price.”

Mattea’s majestic voice – a rich, husky alto/mezzo-soprano with great depth, range and shading – betrayed her. She continued to make records, but Nashville, much like her voice, had also started to change. As the ‘90s wound down, so did Mattea’s commercial clout.

“There was a time when I wondered what might have been, but I quickly let that go,” she says. “I’ve said that the circumstances of your life are just window dressing. It’s really what you do with them that matters. I think that’s how we really find ourselves.”

Kathy Mattea

Mattea’s albums continued to be critically acclaimed, including 2000’s The Innocent Years, made at a time she was facing the declining health of her father, a supervisor at Monsanto Company. His passing from cancer in 2003 was another blow.

“Life can be cruel,” she says. “I spent a lot of time thinking about what’s important to me, which in turn shaped that album.”

In 2008, Mattea released Coal, followed by 2012’s Calling Me Home, but by then her voice had started to change. Six years would pass before the release of 2018’s Pretty Bird. She was on the verge of 60, and at a crossroads. Still allergic to bullshit, Mattea kept things real with herself.

“I was out on the road playing, and I’d go up for a note that I know how to hit, but it wouldn’t come out. There were some ugly cry days in my living room, because I was so frustrated. I didn’t want to leave music – trust me, I wasn’t ready to leave – but I wasn’t going to do it halfway.”

With the support of her longtime guitarist, Bill Cooley, and the help of a vocal coach, Mattea was slowly able to climb out of the darkness. Tony Bennett even offered advice. On Pretty Bird, Mattea’s new range and maturity is on full display. She sings the Hazel Dickens title song a cappella, with a kind of deep richness only time can provide.

“My voice is different than it was before, but I’ve learned that that’s not necessarily a bad thing,” she says. “Being on the other side feels great.”

Turns out Kathy Mattea had it wrong all along.

Yes, she would still do it all over again, because she would still need to know. And no, she wouldn’t change a thing, not one iota, not with the way her career has played out. She’s an icon now, and a country music legend, all thanks to a whole lotta talent and a little bit of luck. She’s sold a boatload of records. She’s played countless shows. She has money in the bank and fans worldwide, both blessings in their own way, but those are simply the byproducts of her ambition. She was never in it for the fortune, never in it for the fame. That was true back then. It’s still true today. Sure, Kathy Mattea became a star, but she could’ve lived with her own crash-and-burn, the way it has for so many others who’ve rolled into Nashville with a guitar stashed in the trunk of a car and a mattress strapped to the roof. Had Kathy Mattea failed, so what? She would have gone back to school. She might have become an engineer, or a chemist, or a theoretical physicist, even. Maybe even gotten a job at Monsanto, following in her father’s footsteps. That would have been fine, too. A roll of the dice, this thing called life. Bottom line, she had to try. She needed to know.

How, exactly, did Kathy Mattea get it wrong?

Knowing is one thing. Realization is another. Prescient moments and gut instinct led her to Nashville, but the real joy is always in the journey, not the destination. It’s about the Bill Cooleys, the Larry Groces, the Tim O’Briens. It’s about failing and trying again, falling and getting back up. Kathy Mattea knows this now. The 19-year-old using her guitar as a divining rod? There was still so much in her life yet to unfurl. You have to experience life to fully appreciate the trick of time, to understand that you’re not going to live forever, and that life – whether you’re a country music superstar or a chemistry teacher at George Washington High School – is all about the little moments along the way, and the memories you make. There has been plenty of laughter in Kathy Mattea’s life, some tears and sadness, too.

She climbed the mountain because she needed to know.

She loves the mountains because they’re who she is.

For Kathy Mattea, West Virginia will always be home.

The year 2020 has been like no other. Take me back to the beginning of the COVID pandemic.

We live in uncertain times because of COVID, but the initial outbreak was surreal. In March and April, the numbers were still going up. Tennessee was trying to reopen, but most of the densely populated counties were still closed. It was very hard on everyone, and still is, like it has been everywhere. One of my dear friends runs the mall near where I live, and she had to work at the mall the next county over because she couldn’t open. Nashville comprises both the city and the county because they’re the same jurisdiction, and the mayor was on the television providing daily updates and reminding everyone to hunker down.


The pandemic has hit the economy hard, the arts especially so.

I don’t think it’s going to be ‘normal’ here in Nashville for a long time. We’re slowly getting back to performing again, with a few dates in Nashville in front a very small number of people, socially distanced, and we’ve booked dates in 2021 that we hope we can keep. We’ll see. When everything shut down in March, all of my guys would check in with each other. As the weather got warmer, we were able to sit outside, socially distanced, and have some rehearsals and jams sessions. We did do one “concert” early on, in an old house that a friend had converted into a business. It had been completely sterilized, and nobody had been in there for weeks. The four of us got together, six feet apart, and did a Facebook Live concert. That felt great.

Kathy Mattea

What else have you been into since the outbreak of COVID-19?

Interestingly, we moved a few days before this all started, after 30 years in our old house. So, there hasn’t been a lack of stuff to do. The house we moved from was an older, historic house located just outside of the historic overlay, so the gentrification of that neighborhood was heartbreaking, and part of why we moved. It was quite a journey – lots of moving and cleaning and talking to the neighbors and saying goodbye. It was a rollercoaster but thankfully we’ve gotten settled into our new home.


Coal mining is such an indelible part of West Virginia. What was your story with coal?

A lot of the mines had shut down and the chemical industry had moved into the Kanawha Valley by the time my dad got out of the mines, but coal was still a big part of our family’s history. My dad grew up in Smithers, and his dad mined at Cannelton Coal. My mom grew up in Bancroft in Putnam County, and her dad mined at Plymouth Hollow. So, both of them grew up in little coal mining towns. Their fathers both had their own houses, which was a source of great pride. I heard all of their stories growing up, my mom and my dad telling me what it was like. I will forever remember the little vignettes that they told me.


You grew up in Cross Lanes, West Virginia.

We had a great neighborhood. Everybody knew everybody, and there were kids everywhere. There was a subdivision up the hill behind us, and our house was halfway between the grade school and this subdivision, so everybody would walk through our yard on the way home from school. It got to the point that my dad and the guy behind us got together and built some steps up the side of the hill, so the kids could get home a little easier. There were so many good times. We had a garden in the backyard. We would play kickball in the evenings, and we would go out after school and run around the neighborhood playing games – cops and robbers during the day, and flashlight tag at night. It was small town America. We had a big family, and we would all get together and have cookouts in the summertime. It was a great way to grow up.

Kathy Mattea

What are some of your earliest childhood memories?

I was the surprise kid who came along nine years after the youngest of my two brothers, which meant that I wasn’t supposed to be around, so I changed all the plans for everybody [laughs]. When I was born it became very clear, very quick, that I was real smart. I learned the alphabet not in order, but as I saw the letters in front of me. In fact, the big family joke is that my first word was “Westinghouse” because I would sit in the high chair in our kitchen, where we had a Westinghouse stove, and I’d point and ask what the letters were. I just had this insatiable desire to know. To keep me out of their hair while they were doing homework, my brothers would give me problems to solve and words to study. By the time I got into first grade, I could read and I could do math. The teachers discovered this pretty quickly. After a month in the first grade, they did all this testing and decided to move me to second grade. Actually, I was the last person to be double-promoted in Kanawha County.


Could you sense that you were academically ahead of other kids your age?

I had this fire, really, from the time I was born, to just engage with the world. I was also kind of a misfit in school, because my brain was much quicker than all of the other kids the same age. Emotionally, I was probably a little bit behind for my age. The teachers loved me, but I could not fit in with the other kids. I couldn’t figure it out socially. It was like they all knew some secret code, or had the password, or knew the cool phrase required to be accepted, but I’d somehow been left out when that information was shared. I just couldn’t connect with the other kids.


Did you ever find your clique?

I went away to Girl Scout camp in Greenbrier County during the summer between fifth-and-sixth grade, and I discovered that if you had a guitar, then everybody gathered around and wanted to sing. You didn’t have to say anything, you didn’t have to know how to be cool, and you didn’t have to worry about fitting in. People just came to you. I became a person possessed. My parents got me a guitar that summer for my birthday – actually, they rented me a guitar from a music store because they weren’t convinced that I’d stick with it – and I started taking lessons. Once they saw how obsessed I was, they got me one for Christmas. Music was all that I cared about after that. I wound up joining the choir, as well as the junior high and high school bands. The music kids became my tribe.


Were you drawn to any other creative pursuits in high school?

I remember the year when all of the peeps in my class were turning 16, and everyone was rushing to get their driver’s licenses so that they could all get summer jobs. My mom was like, “Kathy’s going to be the only one in her circle of friends that doesn’t do this.” And while she never said it, I’m sure that she thought, “I’m going to have to be home with her all summer, so I’ve got to find something for her to do.” Somewhere around that time she saw an audition for a summer show at George Washington High School, and it was being put on by the guys who were very involved with the Charleston Light Opera Guild. I went and auditioned, and dang if I didn’t make it. It was a 10-person cast, and we did Godspell that summer. I became a theatre rat.

Kathy Mattea

Please tell me about your first-ever solo performance, for a local TV show in the 10th grade. You sang a version of John Denver’s Gospel Changes.

I had these friends in high school who were a couple of years ahead of me – John Thompson and Jim Snyder, who I still keep in touch with – and they had been playing music together for years. They were involved in this little variety show on cable television. This was back when cable TV was in its fledgling stage. It was almost what you might consider to be community access television now. Anyway, they were looking for content to perform and they asked me to appear. The idea was to play and sing, and so I went to this tiny studio and did it live on the air that afternoon. I’d be surprised if 20 people saw it, but when I got back to my house in Cross Lanes the phone rang. There was a woman on the other end. She wouldn’t tell me her name, but she said that she saw me and thought that I was really, really good. She explained that she had gone into the music business a long time ago, but that it had chewed her up and spit her out. She told me that I had something special. I was on the phone with her for about 45 minutes, and when I hung up, my mother and I just looked at each other and our jaws hit the floor. That kind of feedback became a theme: By the time I’d decided to quit college and move to Nashville, several things like that had happened to me, so I finally thought to myself, “Okay, you’ve got something that people are connecting with.” That’s when I made the decision to make the move.


You went to college at West Virginia University. Did you have a music career on your mind when you got there?

By the time I’d gotten into college, I had been playing guitar anywhere that I could. There was a folk group in my church and I did that. There was all of the community theater stuff, and I did that. There were the school plays and musicals at Nitro High School, and I did all of that stuff. Then I go to college and find these guys who were as eaten up about music as I was, and I started hanging out with them.  We started writing songs and jamming. That’s when I realized that I could do the math and science with no problem – I was a physics and chemistry major – but I felt different when I did music. And I was just young enough that I thought, “What would happen if I built my life around music? What if I went that route, instead of doing this thing that I’m good at but don’t care about?” That’s what launched me. And then, when I had the chance to go to Nashville, I thought to myself, “I don’t care if you make it or not, I just want to know that you tried.” That way I could have that monkey off my back, and I wouldn’t have to spend the rest of my life wondering what might have been.

Dan Seals, left, and Kathy Mattea present the Vocal Group of the Year award during the 21st annual CMA Awards show at the Grand Ole Opry House on Oct. 12, 1987.
P. Casey Daley / The Tennessean

What was college life like for Kathy Mattea?

We put together a band while I was at WVU. It was a mix of folk and bluegrass. We wrote some songs. We made some demos and sent them off to the record companies, ceremoniously dropping them into the mailbox on High Street in Morgantown. We received so many rejection letters, most of them impersonal, but we did get a couple that had handwritten notes on the bottom. The feedback was very encouraging. I thought, “Wow. I don’t know if we’re good enough, but someone thinks something. We’ve got somebody’s attention.”

Then came the end of my sophomore year. Mickey, my main co-writer in the group, was graduating. Like me, he was really serious about music, and he decided that he was going to move to Nashville. He went down there during spring break, so I went with him and helped him scope the place out. He moved after the summer. I got a little job selling cheese at the Hickory Farms in the Mountaineer Mall.


I just can’t picture Kathy Mattea, two-time Grammy Award winner, selling cheese at a mall.

It was the mid-1970s, and people just weren’t paying top dollar for designer cheese [laughs]. The manager was very into it, and was trying to make that store best store in the region – the most sales, that sort of thing – so there was a lot of pressure. Try as I could, I just could not make cheese the center point of my life. So, the manager called and asked me to come in. I thought she was going to give me another pep talk about selling cheese. Well, I walked in and she fired me. She said, “We don’t think you are Hickory Farms material.”

I went back to the house where I lived and I got really depressed. Part of me was fine with being fired because I didn’t care about the job, but I had never, ever had anybody say that they didn’t want me or that I didn’t measure up. My roommates would go to work every day and I would just sit around the house and feel sorry for myself. I didn’t want to be doing physics and chemistry for the rest of my life. Mickey was leaving. The band was breaking up. I had a steady boyfriend for the past year, but things weren’t going well and we were on the rocks. I was in a really dark place heading into that next semester.

Kathy Mattea is having fun as she plays for fans attending the PolyGram/Mercury Records show during Fan Fair at the Tennessee State Fairgrounds on June 9, 1987.

You dropped out of college and moved to Nashville.

I was just sitting there in despair, feeling like I was in a stuck place, when this voice came into my head that said, “If you look at this like a crisis, it will be a crisis. If you look at this like an opportunity, it will be an opportunity.” That’s when it occurred to me that I was a year younger than everybody in my class. That meant that I had a year to play with. I could go to Nashville for a year, and if it didn’t work out, then I could come back and I’d be the same age as everybody in all of my classes. More importantly, I’d have answered this nagging question about a music career, and then I could figure out what I wanted to do with my life. I suddenly got really excited. I picked up the phone and called home. I said, “Mom…Dad…school has been great, and thanks so much, but guess what? I’m going to quit, and I’m going to move to Nashville with a boy and become a songwriter.”


How did that go over with your parents?

We’re talking about Depression Era kids that grew up in coal towns, so they were not thrilled at all. The silence on the other end of the phone was deafening. I moved back to Cross Lanes before I moved to Nashville, and I spent about three weeks talking to them. They were all about the reasons they didn’t want me to do it, and I was full of answers as to why I should. They were like, “Just get your degree.” I was like, “If I stay here and get my degree, then I’ll never go because I won’t go by myself. Nashville’s too big.” Eventually, they accepted my decision, and I moved to Nashville. Mickey and I plunged right in. We played Writer’s Nights, took our tapes around, and got to know some people…but after less than a year my writing partner, said, “This isn’t for me. I want to go home. I want to go back to school.” He is now a dentist in Richmond, Virginia, and I’ve had this crazy life in Nashville.


Did you ever think that you might not succeed in Nashville?

When Mickey left, my first instinct was to go back to Cross Lanes and start getting ready for school, but then a terrible feeling came into the pit of my stomach. I thought, “If you leave because he left, then you only came because he came.” I’d wanted to do this for a very long time. Nashville was my dream. My whole life was made up of these little moments where people were like, “Kathy, you have something.”

Kathy Mattea

It sounds like an enormous internal conflict.

Very much so. On one hand, it was scary because he had kind of run the show. He had done all of the research and made all of the appointments, and I was kind of his sidekick. Yet, when we would take our tapes around and play them for publishers, people would say, “Who is singing this? Is that you?” That buoyed me. But Nashville was about 500,000 people at the time, which seemed too big for me to make it on my own. Those were the moments when I’d panic and think about heading back to West Virginia. Then I would think about driving home and pulling up into the driveway, where my parents would be waiting to say, “We knew you would be back.” Then I would panic about that. Nothing felt right. I somehow convinced myself not to make a snap decision. Instead of packing up and running back home, I’d give it a month and see how I felt about it then.


How did Nashville win out?

I had started losing my voice from giving tours at the Country Music Hall of Fame, so I quit that job and got a desk job with an insurance company. The office was about a mile from my house, which was about a 20-minute walk, so I decided that I was going to walk to work and back every day. That’s what I did. As I walked, I would imagine staying in Nashville, living here on my own, and trying to find my way. Then, when I couldn’t not bear those thoughts anymore, I would flip it around and imagine going home. I’d visualize going back to school. I’d see myself moving back to Morgantown, signing up for classes, and pursuing those degrees in physics and chemistry. I would do this back-and-forth, day after day, all the way to work and all the way back home.

Then, after about three weeks of this struggle, something happened. I stopped dead in my tracks one morning on the way to work, and I said, “Kathy, you can do anything for a year. But if you stay, give it all you’ve got.” That’s when it hit me – I hadn’t really laid it all on the line. I hadn’t tried with every fiber of my being. I realized in that moment that if I really gave it everything I had for a year and failed, then I could live with the results. My whole definition of success shifted in that moment. I was no longer scared of failure. I would have peace because I wouldn’t have to wonder for the rest of my life.


It turned out to be the right decision. In 1984, you released your first album. Please tell me about landing your first record deal.

I got a call from a record company who had heard my tapes and wanted to meet with me. By then I knew enough to know that this was a good thing. I had sessions scheduled that day and was going to be singing in the studio, so they asked me to come in before the sessions. The record company – Mercury Records – was a block away from the studio on Music Row, so I stopped on my way in. When I walked in the door, the receptionist said, “Jessie from Warner Brothers called, and she wants you to call her right away.” Warner Brothers happened to be another record label that had been talking to me, and they somehow knew about this appointment with Mercury – that’s how small of a town Nashville was at that time. So, I called the A&R person at Warner Brothers and she said, “Whatever you do, you need to listen to Warner Brothers before you make your decision.”

I went ahead and had the meeting with the head of Mercury, who said that they wanted to sign me. Then, at the end of the day, the A&R person from Warner Brothers picked me up and took me for an audience with Jimmy Bowen, who was the head of that label. He wanted to know what kind of deal Mercury offered. I told him that there was a producer on staff, that I could have independent production, and that I could choose what I wanted to produce. He said, “You should take the deal. We just merged with another label, and I have to drop a bunch of artists. If they are giving you outside production, that’s a good deal for you right now. You should take it.” Jimmy Bowen was looking out for me. He had been talking to me for a while, but he knew he couldn’t sign me. He wanted to make sure that I didn’t make a mistake.

Kathy Mattea

How did you celebrate?

I went and played a benefit that night and I got to say, “I got a record deal today!” That was truly a Cinderella day for me. I was going to get my shot.


Where were you the first time you heard yourself on the radio?

I knew that WFAM AM in Nashville was playing my first single. I was in my car on Music Row, a block from where I lived, and I had come to a stop at a stoplight. It was a one-way road, and there was a guy in a van on my right. My song came on the radio…and I rolled down all of the windows and cranked it up as loud as I could. The guy looked at me, and I looked at him, and then I pointed to the radio and screamed, “That’s me! That’s me on the radio!” The guy just looks at me, like, “Yeah, sure.” And then the light turned green and he just pulled out.


In late 1987 you had your first Number One hit. Where were you when you learned that Goin’ Gone was at the top of the charts?

I don’t remember where I was, but we did have a Number One party for the song. That was a thing you did back then. They still do it on Music Row today, but it’s become such a huge production. There are huge banners, big parties, and lots and lots of people. Back when Goin’ Gone reached Number One, you didn’t have all of that pomp and circumstance. We just had a little party in the studio where the song was recorded – a nondescript, old house on Music Row that my producer, Allen Reynolds, owned. Garth Brooks owns it today; ironically, Allen is probably most famous for producing Garth. Anyway, we got all the writers together, along with the people who played on that record, and we celebrated this great collaboration. There were like 10 people there. We ate cake, drank some beer, and went home.


That sounds pretty low-key for someone who just landed her first Number One hit.

I have two memories from that Number One party that are great. The first one is of the song playing in the studio control room. There’s a big outside gathering area just outside of the studio, and we had all congregated there to listen to the song. What I didn’t realize was that they had made a spoof of the song. They had added four tracks to the end of it, including a ukulele – they knew that I hated the ukulele [laughs]. I’d looked at Allen Reynolds when I started working there and I was like, “I love you pal, and I know you like the ukulele, but you’re not putting the ukulele on any of my records.” So, that was the joke – they had made this whole outro with the ukulele. At one point, it sounded like there was a big lighthouse in the harbor because there was a long and loud “honk, honk.” We all had a big laugh about it.

The other memory that I have of that day came at the end of the party. My soon-to-be husband [Jon Vezner] was there, and as everyone was trickling out, he said to Allen and me, “I want to play you something.” So, we went upstairs to Allen’s listening room, and Jon played a demo of a song he’d been working on. That song was, Where’ve You Been. I knew the story. I knew that his grandmother had said those words. It was stunning to hear it told like that. I just looked at him like, “Oh my God, you wrote this in a song.” It was such a powerful moment.

Kathy Mattea

Where’ve You Been won the Grammy Award for Best Country Song in 1990. Can you share the backstory?

Jon had told me that story while we were dating. There’s this moment in a relationship when you get a little more serious and you start to tell each other the really important things. This was one of those times. Jon’s grandmother had gotten sick, gone to the hospital, and had fallen and broken her hip, so she had been in there for a long time. She started forgetting people’s names, and finally she wouldn’t eat, and she wouldn’t talk…she was just waiting to die. Jon wheeled his grandfather into the room that day and pulled him around the bed beside her. She looked her husband and said – not in a fragile voice, but in a tone that was kind of pissed off [laughs] – “Where’ve you been?” It was the last thing she ever said. She died a couple of weeks later. She didn’t speak anymore. She had been in a kind of dementia fog, but on that day, in that moment, her husband pulled her back to reality. Jon told me that story one night, and he just burst into tears.


That must have been an incredibly hard song for Jon to write.

 Jon was in a writing session with Don Henry, the co-writer on that song, and together they were able to bring it to life. Jon said that he probably wouldn’t have been able to write it without Don, that he couldn’t have gone there without another writer sort of holding that space with him. Otherwise, he would have gotten lost in all of the emotion of it.

My mom died of Alzheimer’s years later, so my relationship with that song has really evolved over time. It’s such a cruel disease. There they are…you know them so well…you know all of their mannerisms and their quirky little personality things…and yet, they are not there. It’s really hard to watch someone you love go through something like that.


Did you think it was going to be a huge hit?

When I heard it for the first time, I thought that it was too sad to be a hit song, but word quickly spread around Nashville about how great it was, which is why I love Nashville so much – and why I feel so grateful to have moved here when I was young. Every publisher in Nashville had a cassette copy of that song on their desk. We heard story-after-story of people walking in and them going, “You need to hear this song. I don’t want to have anything to do with this song, but you just need to hear this song.”

So, there was a showcase for writers at the Bluebird Café in Nashville. It was put on by a nonprofit company that no longer exists, and they would do a show once a month at the Bluebird. They would invite people to play, and Jon was one of the writers. I was in the audience that night, and he played that song, and when he was done, there were like 10 seconds of silence…and then the place erupted into applause. People were audibly sobbing all over the room. The whole room went to pieces all at once. I thought, “Oh my God, this song…” I suddenly saw that it didn’t matter if it was sad or not. It needed to be heard. So, I went to Allen and I said, “I’m sorry, I know that we both have to approve this song, and you think it’s too sad, but I have to do it.”

Kathy Mattea

Where You Been climbed into the Top Ten despite the heavy nature of the material.

We recorded it with such great musicians. Edgar Meyer, the great bass player who was a MacArthur Fellow, played on it. His dad was dying, and he came to me and said, “My dad isn’t going to live to hear this on the record. Can I have a copy to play for him, because I will never get to play on anything like this again.” Of course, we gave him a copy.

Another interesting story about that song: That night at the Bluebird, a writer got sick at the last minute and had to cancel, so they put another young writer in his place. That writer was Garth Brooks. Garth had been rejected by every record label in Nashville. There was a guy from Capitol Records in the audience that night, and he signed him on the spot. It was one of those crazy things.


Your third studio album, Walk the Way the Wind Blows, was released in 1986. It had four Top 10 hits and stamped you as a country music superstar.

I made my first record with some producers that didn’t have much experience, and we didn’t have a lot of success – a little bit, but not too much. My second album didn’t hardly do anything either, but I was fortunate to have worked on it with Allen Reynolds. That really helped point me in the right direction, even though I’d yet to make any real noise. Luckily my record company said, “Look, we don’t think you found your stride yet, but we believe in you.” So, they stuck with me, and Walk the Way the Wind Blows became the album that put me over the top.


Love at the Five and Dime became your first Top 10 record.

Mercury had decided that they were going to put out singles, and that they weren’t going to spend money on another album until we gained some traction. The original plan was to go cut two singles, a total of four songs, which meant two A-sides and two B-sides. We actually got five songs out of the session. There was a song that I really liked, but, as luck would have it, a new guy came in and took over the record company, and he really liked this other song. I looked at Allen and I was like, “What do we do? I don’t want to fight the new guy. I don’t want to get off on the wrong foot and get on his bad side.” Allen said, “Just let him put out what he wants to put out, and if it doesn’t hit, then you’ll be able to say, ‘I told you so.’” So, the new guy says that Love at the Five and Dime is my hit. We put it out, and it just floated up the charts like it had a balloon attached to it. It was amazing. I still sing that song every night.


It’s a great song.

I was doing an interview with the literary guy, and he said, “Kathy, that song is an epic story told in three-and-a-half minutes. You experience the entire lifetime of these two people. I had never really thought about it like that. It was written by Nanci Griffith, and told in a way that only Nanci could tell it. As an artist, that song was lighting in a bottle. I tell my audiences that when I sing that song, it’s like putting on your favorite old pair of blue jeans, the pair that’s worn in just the right way and that you know so well.

Kathy Mattea

On April 1, 2008, you released your thirteenth studio album, Coal.

When I went to make this album about coal, I went through all of the songs I could find that had been written about that life, and I listened to them for months. The process started lots of conversations with my family, and all of these little stories started stringing together into a bigger picture. Everything came into clearer focus. My cousin started telling me stories that I hadn’t heard about, like a grandfather who owned a Whipple Store. The Whipple Store was a company store, which was usually the only place in town that the miners could shop. That’s because the miners were paid in “scrip,” which was only redeemable at the company store. I wound up going up there and shooting some pictures for the album cover.

The more research I did, the more I found all of these amazing connections to coal, but the more I also felt that I’d somehow missed out on this part of our family legacy. Then, I was home shooting the album cover and driving around with my manager, and he said, “Kathy, you grew up in the shadow of coal.” And then he pointed to the stacks of the John Amos Power Plant, which is the biggest coal-fired electrical plant east of the Mississippi. That made me think about my brother, who was a dispatcher and who sent coal up and down the Ohio and Kanawha rivers to the plant. Until that moment I hadn’t thought about it like that or made that connection. Mike wasn’t a coal miner, but he was directly involved in the barges that were part of the same chain. I was so close to it that I couldn’t see the forest for the trees.


You’ve had a long musical relationship with a fellow West Virginian, Tim O’Brien.

I met Tim when I did Walk the Way the Wind Blows. His publisher had pitched me that song. We got to know each other and just hit it off, and then he came and played on Untold Stories, which became a big hit. Tim lived in Colorado at the time, and we would visit with him and his wife whenever we played out there. Then he moved to Nashville. He produced my most recent album, Pretty Bird, in 2018, and we’ve remained great friends over the years.

Tim is just a phenomenal musician. He’s such a great player, and so proficient on so many instruments. He’s also a great singer, and so soulful, and sings in so many different styles. He has all these different facets to him, any one of which, if you isolated them, you would say, “He’s one of the best.” I have been a champion of his for a long time. He just makes everybody sound better. That’s what I always say about Tim. I don’t think that there is anyone else that I know who is that good, and that deferential. He will meet anyone exactly where they are musically. He doesn’t have to prove anything to you, he doesn’t have to show you how good he is, he just wants to find a place where your collaboration fits. He meets you where you are. There’s not a lot of ego with Tim, especially relative to how good he is. That is just amazing to me.


Bill Cooley is another talented musician who you’ve played with for a very long time.

This past January marked 30 years that I’ve been playing with Bill. I had this guitar player named John Mock, who went on to play with the Dixie Chicks. John was leaving my band, so I was having auditions. Bill had been playing with Merle Haggard, he’d played with Reba McIntyre, and at the time he was playing with Alan Jackson. I already knew Bill because his wife made all of my clothes. She is this amazing artist, and she did all of this embroidery work and produced custom-designed clothes for me.

Well, Bill came in and auditioned, and he just blew everybody out of the water. Nobody else was even close. I never thought that he would stay this long – and neither did he. We just kept looking at each other over the years, and decided to stay together and keep going. I think I really dug in with him a little before the Coal record. We worked out all of those arrangements together – Bill is a brilliant arranger – and he has been sort of my musical guru. He’s one of my tent poles, I guess you could say. I bounce everything off of him.


As a native West Virginian, you’re very involved with Mountain Stage.

Prior to COVID, I’d been guest-hosting Mountain Stage once-a-month for the past year. In fact, I woke up at five this morning with the thought that I had to host Mountain Stage today and hadn’t done my homework. Let me tell you, there was a moment of true panic [laughs].


Mountain Stage has developed a national reputation. There’s no other show like it.

Mountain Stage is important for lots of reasons – it’s important for West Virginia, it’s important for the artists, and it’s important for the arts in general. I really want them to thrive. It’s such a great tradition. I have been involved with Larry Groce and Mountain Stage since it started, and what a privilege it has been. Stepping into Larry Groce’s shoes is a big job. It’s a lot of work, but he makes it look so easy. I performed on some of the early shows, and in 1986 I was actually a guest on the show they did at the Public Radio Programmers Conference in San Diego. That was a significant step, because that’s when they sort of made the play to go national.


Mountain Stage has been a great showcase for creativity in West Virginia.

I feel like my career arc parallels the same timespan as Mountain Stage, so it has been a real companion and a constant in my life since I started playing music. I have been on the show a bunch of times, and I love those guys. I’m constantly amazed by the vision that it took to come up with that concept and think, “People will drive to West Virginia to be on our show. We’ll show them just what it’s like to be from West Virginia, and we’ll give them that kind of hospitality. They will remember us and they will come back.” Without question, Mountain Stage accomplishes a lot. It’s not only our chance to share West Virginia culture on a national stage, but it’s also a chance to give a forum for a lot of artists who are not straight down the middle but who do very interesting and important work.

Kathy Mattea

Do you think the show helps dispel the West Virginia stereotypes that are out there?

I think that Mountain Stage is a really important showcase for West Virginia, because people who aren’t from there get a feel for the friendly, quirky, community atmosphere that is so much a part of West Virginia culture. It’s our counterbalance to so many of the stereotypes that people hold who have never been there. When people come to West Virginia and they do the show, they are like, “This is great! These people are great!” And then they go back into the world and tell everyone how great the people are, and what West Virginia is really like.


Mountain Stage wouldn’t be here without Larry Groce. The two of you are great friends – I’m sure you’ve shared plenty of laughs through the years.

At Mountain Stage, one of the quirky things they do backstage is that everyone has a tiki – a little good luck charm – at their stations. Paul Flaherty, the production and stage manager, has a little bobble head doll of John Hartford, who was a master of the fiddle and the banjo. There’s a little animal of some type that sits on top of the mixing console. Larry has a rocking chair, a “Fra-Gee-Lay” lamp, which is one of those leg lamps from A Christmas Story, a Dallas Cowboys full-sized, game-worn football helmet. So, I came walking in one day and I was like, “Look guys, I love ya and I love Larry, but can we do something about that Dallas Cowboys football helmet? I live in Nashville, and I’m a Titans fan, and my ch’i will be off if I have to look at that Cowboys helmet all of the time.” Fast forward to the last time we did a live show. Paul had gone somewhere and played one of those claw crane arcade games, the kind where you put the coin in and try to grab the little prize. Well, he saw a miniature Tennessee Titans football helmet, and somehow snagged it on the first try. He gives it to me, and guess what? Now there is a miniature Tennessee Titans football helmet sitting beside Larry’s “Fra-Gee-Lay” lamp, and everything is right with the world [laughs]. They keep telling me that I’ve got to bring in my tiki. I think that Titans helmet will do just fine.


In 2011, you were inducted into the West Virginia Music Hall of Fame. Please take me back.

The cool thing about it is this: Tim O’Brien inducted me, and I inducted Tim. It’s such a sweet thing to get to put into words what you think is special about someone that you love. I got inducted first, so when he presented me you could have knocked me over with a feather. I was really stunned. And so, when it came his time and they ask me to be the presenter, I couldn’t wait to tell the world what was so special about him.

The thing that surprised me most is that I’d never really thought about Hall of Fame kinds-of-things, even though I’d worked as a tour guide at the Country Music Hall of Fame in Nashville. I’d always just gone about my business and did my deal. I was surprised by how completely overflowing I felt at the end of that night. It was a tremendous honor to be inducted. The first time I was there, I’d been asked to help induct Billy Edd Wheeler. It was 2007, and it was the same year that Hazel Dickens was inducted. I just remember thinking how lucky I was to be there to see these amazing artists recognized for their body of work. Just to see them brought into focus like that was very inspiring. If there had been something like that when I was a kid, then I might have turned towards music earlier or in a different way.

Kathy Mattea

Final Question: If you had one piece of advice for the next Kathy Mattea, what would that be?

Two things: First, don’t stop writing songs, no matter what, because I did. When I got to Nashville, I thought that I was far more advanced as a singer than I was as a songwriter. So I invested in my strengths. My manager at the time kept saying, “Kathy, go take voice lessons, invest in your voice, but don’t stop writing. You will never regret it if you don’t stop writing. You always be glad you did.” Looking back, I think that I could have been one of the great songwriters. I think that I gave up on it too soon. That is my one big regret.

The other thing would be to pursue your dream with total commitment. That doesn’t mean it will work out the way you hope. I didn’t know if I’d succeed when I moved to Nashville, or if I’d end up back in school studying physics and chemistry. I just knew that I could look back after giving it my all and be happy with the result. I’m very happy with the way my life has turned out.

Written By: Michael D. McClellan |

Interventional cardiologists aren’t supposed to be this cool.

Dr. Samuel Kojoglanian joins the Zoom call from his office in Southern California, the USC grad overcoming all manner of obstacle to become one of the most respected specialists in his field, his journey from the war-torn Middle East to sunny SoCal a testament to faith, family, and fearlessness. He’s nothing like you might expect; while most doctors come to the game equipped with the requisite compassion needed to connect with patients and their families, Kojoglanian – Dr. Sam to those who know him best – is über high-relational, his charismatic personality infectious and easy to love, especially to those facing difficult conversations. Kojoglanian is an unscripted jazz riff in a medical world filled with concertos. He’s loquacious, spontaneous, generous, and authentic. His vibe reflects his upbringing; confident yet humble, driven yet down-to-earth. He’s a hugger, something that’s become harder to do during the coronavirus pandemic. He’s a giver – of his time, his energy, and his money. Above all else, Kojoglanian is a disciple of Christ and a man whose choices are driven by the Word of God.

“You can’t go wrong serving people,” he says, when asked about his mission in life. “You can’t go wrong loving people. God made it clear that I could rock this world if I put my priorities aside and focused on His will instead.”

Photo Courtesy Dr. Sam Kojoglanian

Today, Dr. Sam pours his heart and soul into his practice, the Santa Clarita-based Mender of Hearts, where he has been honored with the prestigious Patient’s Choice Award three years running. Of the 900,000 active physicians in America, only 6% receive the award. Even more telling: Less than 3% of all active physicians receive the Most Compassionate Award. Dr. Sam has three of those as well. Those qualities only scratch the surface of what he brings to the table. His Beacon of Hearts ministry brings together volunteer staff from Third World countries. By partnering with pastors, churches, and medical personnel, an army of volunteers is set in motion to serve those without access to adequate medical and dental care – all while also delivering the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

“The ministry that God has given me is special, because it’s not just preaching the gospel,” Dr. Sam says. “That part is obviously very important for the soul, and it’s our main priority, but we are also able to feed people who are indigent. We treat hypertension, diabetes, and high cholesterol. We educate people on the importance of making dietary changes. We evangelize the benefits of physical activity. It’s all part of fulfilling God’s will.”

The pandemic may have paused Dr. Sam’s mission overseas, but it hasn’t slowed him down. He continues to write, focusing his attention on the Book of Revelation. Rev It Up series sheds important light on one of the more complicated books in the Bible.

“Nobody really understands the Book of Revelation,” Kojoglanian says. “It has taken me four years to come up with this series, which is comprised of two books: Rev It Up – Verse by Verse – Vol. 1, which covers Chapters 1 through 11, and Rev It Up – Verse by Verse – Vol. 2, which covers Chapters 12 through 22. The two volumes together are almost 1,000 pages in total, but don’t let the size intimidate you. I made it very easy to understand. There are beautiful illustrations. There are little hearts throughout that clue the reader in to what is really cool. There are easy-to-understand medical references, where I discuss how medicine aligns to the Bible. There are also geopolitical references, where I draw parallels between the Book of Revelation and what’s going on in places like the United States, Israel, Russia, and China. These aren’t today’s headlines. They’re tomorrow’s headlines. All of it discussed verse-by-verse.”


The Rev It Up series also has a couple of other intriguing offerings.

Rev It Up – Rhyme by Rhyme is something that nobody has ever done before. This is the Book of Revelation in poetry. Rev It Up – Image by Image brings the Book of Revelation to life in a tangible, more understandable, and relatable way. The front cover is insane. Most of the time, the pictures that you see depicting the Book of Revelation are kind of cheesy. These are not cheesy. These are the real deal.”

Kojoglanian has other books in the works, including Rev It Up for Kids. He has a thriving practice that continues to save lives. He continues to plan his next mission trip overseas. All of it while keeping Christ front and center.

“God has put me on this earth to do my part, and to make this world a better place,” he says. “I may be one person, but baby, I was put on earth to rock this whole planet in the name of Jesus Christ, and I’m going to do it.”

Take me all the way back.

It’s a fascinating story that starts in Jerusalem. You won’t believe this, but I was born in a hospital in Mount of Olives. The reason that we were in Jerusalem to begin with was an enormous massacre conducted by the Turkish people in 1915, during which approximately 1.5 million Armenians were killed. It’s known today as the Armenian Genocide. My grandparents had to flee, and they ended up in an Armenian diaspora, which is an Armenian community located outside of Armenia. Some fled to Lebanon, while others, including my grandparents, ended up in Jerusalem. So, lo and behold, I was born smack dab in the middle of the Holy City – the holiest city in the world – and I was brought up on the Via Dolorosa, the processional route in the Old City of Jerusalem. That’s the path that Jesus walked on the way to his crucifixion. That was my backyard. I have chills on my arms just thinking about it!


What childhood memories to you have of your time in Jerusalem?

We played marbles. We ran up and down the street and played soccer. My dad would take us to Bethlehem and say, “This is where Jesus was born,” but we were just kids at the time. We were like, “Seriously? Can’t we go somewhere else fun?” We learned a lot of languages while we were in Jerusalem, but I didn’t know English just yet. Little did I know that it would become my main language.

Photo Courtesy Dr. Sam Kojoglanian

How old were you when you realized you wanted to be a doctor?

Two great things happened in my life at the age of five, and one of them was in the tablet of my heart. It was like an awakening. I don’t know if that happens to all five-year-old children, but it did to me. I sensed that God was saying I’d be a heart doctor when I grew up. He said, “I’ve called you to touch the hearts of mankind.” That’s when the second great thing happened: I gave my life to Christ.


What church did you attend in Israel?

I grew up in a Nazarene church. I think my mama taught me Bible verses when I was in the womb [laughs]. I wasn’t a Christian when I was born, because you can’t be born Christian, but I went to church and Sunday school. My mama made it clear from an early age that you may have many friends in life, and they might say that they’ve got your back, but truly, truly, truly, there’s only one person that’s got your back, and that’s Jesus Christ. He is powerful. He is good. He is kind. If you want to serve others, and if you want to be a light to the world and a salt to this earth, then you put your faith in Jesus. It’s been nothing but sweet to follow Him.


The Middle East can be a dangerous place. Was it like that for you?

We had soldiers pointing guns at us when we went to school. That was the norm for us, so you don’t really think about it. Still, we wanted to get to school safely. It could be scary. There might be bombs falling, but that was the norm and you didn’t know otherwise. You didn’t think that you were supposed to be riding a school bus, and that the school bus is supposed to be yellow, and that it’s supposed to have a stop sign that folds out to alert oncoming traffic to the children crossing the street. You’re not growing up in that kind of environment, so you accept your reality at the time because that’s all you know.

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Is that why your family moved to the United States?

I remember my dad saying, “One day you’re gonna thank me because we’re leaving this place. We’re going to go to a place called America. I didn’t understand this at the time, but my dad used to work long days, oftentimes 16 hours or more. He didn’t do it to get rich. He wanted his kids to taste America. He wanted us to go to the other milk and honey land. Why? Because Jerusalem was a warzone. He worked very hard for many years to get us to America.


Your family relocated to Tennessee. That had to be a culture shock.

My uncle was already living in Chattanooga, and he told my father that it was a lovely place to raise your children. He explained that the people there are nice. It’s the South. It’s the Bible Belt. The people in the South see you and they are like, “Hey, honey.” If you don’t say ‘hi’ then they’re like, “What’s wrong with you, baby?” They’re gonna hug you. We moved from a war-torn country to a place like that, so I loved it. And then later we moved to Cali [California] where people don’t speak. If you speak to them, they look at you like they’re gonna take you down [laughs].


You had your friends in Jerusalem. How did you fit in with the kids in your new hometown?

It was crazy. My last name is Kojoglanian, and I have dark hair and brown eyes. Everybody there was a Smith or a Jones, and most everyone had blonde hair and blue eyes. They’re wearing Nike shoes and Levi’s jeans. I’ve got on sandals and pantalones. They’re hip-hop cool. I’m just a foreigner boy. I didn’t make sense to people.


Was it hard adjusting to your new school in the United States?

I remember the first day of school very clearly. The teacher went one-by-one and was like, “Who’s got their lunch?” I started crying because I didn’t know what lunch was. Everybody was like, “Yes, I got my lunch. I got my lunch.” I didn’t know what lunch was, baby. It was a difficult transition as a fourth grader.

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Bullying is a big thing today with social media. Were you every bullied for being different?

I was beat up in school, and not because I was a thug. I was just different. I didn’t know how to speak no English, and some people say that I still don’t know how [laughs]. I remember getting hit on the nose on the playground, and I ended up in the hospital ER because we couldn’t stop the bleeding. I told my mom and dad that I wanted to go back to Jerusalem.


How did you overcome this adversity?

My mama and daddy told me two things: One, you sit on your butt and you study hard, because that’s why we came to America. And two, if you want to fight with these people, if you want to knock them out, then you get on your knees and pray to the Lord. You pray that He gives you the grace and the strength to weather the storm. They promised me that things would change if I did that, and they did.


In what ways?

As a fourth-grader, I remember sitting in the school auditorium with 900 kids and watching the awards ceremony. One of those awards was for the best all-around student. Over the next two years I went hog wild. I started praying and I started studying. I learned the English language. I served my community. I played sports. I joined the choir. I sold the most candy bars in the history of my elementary school in the fifth and sixth grade. Then, at the end of my sixth-grade year, we were in the same auditorium having this huge graduation ceremony. They handed out award-after-award. I didn’t think I’d win anything, but, at the end of the ceremony, the school principal announced that Samuel Kojoglanian had been voted by the students and teachers as the best all-around student.

I stand here today and give God the glory for that. Two years’ worth of hard work by a boy who was not only beat up, but who had tasted bigotry and hatred. I was like, “No, no, no…on my knees, and on my butt. Pray and study. I’m gonna change this place. I’m not going to be a victim. With God’s help, I get to choose.” We weren’t rich. We weren’t privileged. We came to America with a purpose of serving and loving people. My mama and daddy were right. I listened, I gave myself fully to the Lord, and I turned my life around in a matter of two years. I give God the glory for that. When I speak today, I share the advice that my parents gave me. Today I hear people say, “I’m the wrong color, I’m the wrong creed, I’m the wrong sex.” Wait. You’re the wrong nothing. God made you just like you are for a specific reason. You are the light of the world, and you are the salt of the earth. You can rock this planet if you want, it’s all up to you. Sit down on your butt and study hard, and get on your knees and pray. Let’s change this world. That’s my whole attitude in life, man.

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Today you’re a world-renowned doctor. What was your journey like?

We moved to Cali and I took my undergrad at the University of Southern California. Of all the schools in the world, USC was where I wanted to study. My whole life was geared towards becoming a doctor. I went to USC for three years, and I excelled in my classes. Then, when the time came, I took the MCAT, which is the Medical College Admissions Test. What a nightmare! I had studied like a mad boy. I thought I had done good on it. I was like, “Yeah! Praise God!” And then I got my scores. I went ahead and applied to nine colleges and universities that have medical schools in California. One-by-one, the schools wrote back and rejected my application. All I ever wanted to do was become a doctor, so that I could serve and love God by serving and loving people. My world started to crumble. It was a very disappointing and discouraging time in my life.


Did you hit the panic button?

I was a senior at USC. I had majored in psychology and biology, and all I could think of was, “What do I want to do with that? Am I going to sell pharmaceuticals? Medical equipment? Am I going to teach?” People were always coming at me like, “Did you get into medical school? We know you’re in, right?” It was so embarrassing. It was total humiliation.

I regrouped and studied like a mad boy again. I took the MCAT again. I applied to medical school again. This time around I decided to add a different wrinkle – I also applied to the Graduate School at USC, with the goal of pursuing a Master’s in Gross Anatomy and Microbiology. That would at least let me get my foot in the door. The problem was, they were picking three candidates for the program. I’m was Number 4. I prayed to God, “Lord, can you take out Number 3 because I can’t get into the program unless a spot opens up.” That is not good prayer. I had to ask for forgiveness. He didn’t take out anyone, and I didn’t get in.


How many medical schools did you apply to the second time around?

I applied to 18. My mindset was, “If you can’t get into nine, double it up and try 18.” And again, I decided to try something different, another wrinkle – I had learned about a limited status student program, which allowed individuals with a bachelor’s degree to take a limited number of courses at USC without formally applying for admission to the university. You get to enter the medical school, not as a master’s student, not as a medical student, but as someone who takes courses with them, just to get a feel for the program. I met with the admitting professor and said, “I will give you my heart and soul. I will serve your university, I will serve you, and I will serve the students.” He said that he’d never seen such passion. He let me into the program.


So, you’re in medical school at USC, but you’re technically not a medical school student.

This was my backup plan, because I was sure that one of the 18 medical schools that I had applied to would accept me. However, one-by-one, I started getting all of these reject letters – 17 of them to be exact. I was beginning to feel like a failure again and then, bam, I got an interview at Loma Linda University in Southern California. This was my chance. I met with the kindest lady, and she asked me, “What will you do if you don’t get into medical school?” I responded by saying, “I guess if I don’t get in, I’ll do psychology so that I can at least help people.” That was the wrong answer, baby. She didn’t want to hear that. I should have said, “If I don’t get in, I will learn from my mistakes. I will break down the walls and the iron gates that are before me, and then, if the door is locked, I’ll find another way to get into medical school. I’ll find a window. I’ll climb down the chimney. I’ll do whatever it takes.” She as looking for that kind of dedication. Instead, Loma Linda became my eighteenth rejection.

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Did you experience doubt that you were meant to be a doctor?

At the time I had a poster on my door of an F-35 fighter jet that takes off vertically, and the slogan said, “Aim High.” That was my life. I had always aimed high. But my world was falling apart. People were telling me that maybe I’d missed the boat. Maybe I wasn’t meant to be a doctor. Maybe I had heard God wrong. It was painful for me. I was hearing these things, my heart was crushed, and I felt like a loser. It didn’t feel like there was any way out. I tore the poster off my door and I hurled it under my bed. Then, in my darkest moment, I got on my knees. I said, “Lord God, what is happening? What’s going on?” I’ve never heard the Lord audibly, but at this moment I heard him in my heart. He said, “Don’t call me Lord. I’m not your Lord. I’m your Savior, but I’m not your Lord. Medicine is your Lord. You worship medicine.”

That day, I made the hardest decision in my life. I said, “I’m making you my Lord, and I will give you medicine. If you decide to take it away from me then you may take it. If you do take it away from me, part of my heart will die, but I would rather have you than medicine. I would rather worship you than medicine. I’d rather be on the right path than the wrong path. You are the way, the truth, and the light.”


In what ways did God answer your prayer?

I reapplied for the master’s program, and this time I got in. Then, seven days later, a dean in the medical school called me. My first thought was, “I’ve only been in the master’s program for seven days and I’m getting kicked out.” Instead, he said, “We’ve been watching you, and we want to know if you would like to teach our medical students.” He went on to explain that they were short a teacher, and that they wanted me to be a teaching assistant…to teach medical students at the University of Southern California! It was an insane phone call. Here I was, rejected by 27 medical schools, a year into the limited status student program, and a week into my master’s program…and they wanted me to teach students at one of the most prestigious colleges in the world. At that point I’m looking up to the Lord, and I’m like, “Baby, you’re good!”


How did you handle the opportunity?

I taught those students like crazy! It was an amazing time in my life – a medical school reject who had tasted bigotry and hatred was suddenly teaching medical students. I was different – I came in playing rap music, and they were like, “Who is this?” We’d go out to lunch and dinner, and we studied together like crazy. It energized them, and it reenergized me. I still wasn’t a medical student, but I was convinced that God’s grace would prevail and that my prayers would be answered.


There’s an old adage that the third time’s the charm. Was that true in your case?

I finished my master’s program, and I applied to one medical school. This was my third try. I’d taken the MCAT five times. This was it. A 12-person committee was going to decide my fate, and they knew all of this. They weren’t going to seriously consider me. They were going to reject me again, but God had other plans. He had touched the heart of an African-American lady on the committee named Althea.

Althea had been watching me work with those medical students. She saw me giving my love to them. She saw me helping them even though I wasn’t being paid for all of these extra hours I put in. Althea said, “I’m sorry, but hang on just one minute. I have watched this kid work like a dog for the past three years. He’s won the Teacher of the Year Award at the University of Southern California two years in a row. The medical students love him. He has excelled in pursuing his master’s degree. He has proven to you that he belongs in this place. If you don’t accept him, then perhaps I’m on the wrong committee.” On that day in 1991 I was unanimously voted into the Keck School of Medicine at the University of Southern California.

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That is a testament to the power of perseverance.

I remember when I was trying to get into medical school as an undergrad, there was one professor that said, “Son, you don’t have what it takes to be a medical doctor.” I’m telling you, I have memorized this man’s face, because there might come a time when he ends up on my table. I’m going to be like, “Remember me? Thank you, because I remember you.” And not out of vengeance, but because I had decided to rise above. I had decided to Jesus Christ my Savior and my Lord. God was with me even everyone else had given up.


Do you think that God moved Althea to speak up for you?

I’ll share another story, and then you can decide. Fast-forward a number of years. I’m working in interventional cardiology, and one day a code goes off in the ER. They call for Dr. Kojoglanian to come down. We’re saving this man’s life – he dies, he comes back, he dies again. We’re pouring our souls into getting him back. At one point I’ve got to go talk to the family in the ER, and I run into Althea, who I haven’t seen in 10 years. We share a moment and I tell her that I love her, and that I’ve got to go talk to the family of this patient. She grabs my arm, holds my hand, and says, “No, you’re not going anywhere. That man’s life you just saved, that’s my husband.”

I had tears in my eyes. She said that she knew there was some reason that she’d spoken up for me. It was an incredibly power moment. That was God’s hand at work. That was God’s plan. You tell me the odds of being in Los Angeles, with all of the hospitals we have, and the millions of people that live there…and then, 10 years after Althea helps me get into medical school, her husband ends up in my hospital, when I’m on call, and I’m leading the team that gets to save his life.


If you weren’t close friends before, I’m sure that you are now.

That day she called me Black Jesus [laughs]. That day I got the biggest promotion of my life – I went from a white, Armenian cardiologist, all the way straight up to Black Jesus!


You are in the minority in the medical world – you are a man of faith, and a man of science. Most in your profession feel that the two are mutually exclusive.

People think that science and faith are incompatible. I believe otherwise. Why? Because God created science. He is so far ahead of science. For instance, it took mankind a little while to figure out that the earth is round. In Isaiah, Chapter 40, Verse 22, it says, “The Lord sits enthroned upon the circle of the earth, and all its inhabitants are like grasshoppers.” The Lord proclaimed that the earth was round long before science figured it out.

God is always right. In the Book of Leviticus, Chapter 17, it says that the life of the creature is in its blood. God is telling you that blood makes life. George Washington, our first president, was bled to death. He was 67 at the time, and had been out in the cold weather and got wet. He ended up with a sore throat, which led to an infection. It could have been strep, who knows. The point is, the doctors who treated him decided that the best approach was to bleed him. They then bled him four more times over the next eight hours, with a total blood loss of 40 percent. At the time they thought that taking out his blood would save his life. It wasn’t that long ago that we said to ourselves, “Wait, maybe blood is important. Maybe we should perform blood transfusions rather than bleeding people.” Well, look at what God said to us 3,500 years ago! God put it in the book of Leviticus, that the life of the creature is in the blood!

Photo Courtesy Dr. Sam Kojoglanian

What is your take on evolution?

People like to say that we evolved from monkeys, or that we came from an amoeba. Seriously? Our bodies are so complex, and yet we came from a one cell amoeba? I believe in micro-evolution if you will, where maybe the length of a bird’s beak changes, but a bird will never turn into a dog. There may be 300-plus species of dog – you’ve got our German Shephard, your beagle, and on-and-on – but a dog will never turn into a wolf.


There are a lot of atheists in your profession.

I love all people. I don’t go, “He’s an atheist. He’s this, he’s that.” I love all people. I truly believe that there was a time when everyone actually believed in God. Sin changed everything. You can think what you want to, that’s your choice, but God is going to love you anyway. At some point we decided to become kings of our own souls. We decided that there is no God. But those same people, you put them in a foxhole and there are bullets whizzing past their heads, the first thing they do is look for God to save them. How did God suddenly become real in a life-or-death situation? I thought you were an atheist.


Your warmth and magnetic personality set you apart from other doctors. 

The Number 1 complaint from patients and their families is how the doctor treats them. They’ll say, “You didn’t even look at me. You looked at your computer the whole time. You didn’t listen to me.” I always go back to Jesus, and the compassion he showed. He didn’t say, “I’m God, I walk on water, you can’t touch me.” Jesus let the kids come and sit on his lap. That’s how I want to treat people. I want to treat them as I want to be treated. I treat people as if they’re my family. I always ask myself how I would want someone to treat my mom or my dad. When I enter a room, I don’t go, “Hello, Mr. Smith, how are you today?” I’m like, “What’s up, kids? How y’all doing today?” They’re like, “Oh my gosh, he just called us his kids, and we’re 95 years old.”


Do you ever have someone question your sincerity?

I’m real. This is who I am. It’s not an act. It doesn’t matter if I’m one-on-one with a patient, or I’m on a stage talking to 10,000 people. In fact, when I look out at an audience that size, I know that there are people out there hurting. It doesn’t matter if they have a blue-collar job or they’ve got Grammy Awards on their mantel, when the lights go down everyone is the same.

Photo Courtesy Dr. Sam Kojoglanian

Sometimes the more fame you have, the easier it is to go down a dark path.

People today are lost, and it doesn’t matter how much money or fame they have. Why else would they be drowning themselves in alcohol and drugs? At the end of the day, what do all of the trophies and accolades mean? If those things solved everything, why would they still be angry, agitated, lonely and depressed? Whether they realize it or not, there’s something in our souls that seeks eternity, that seeks a God, that seeks a love that’s unconditional and unfailing and unmatched…a love that can only come from Jesus Christ.


Do you find yourself walking a fine line with your faith as a doctor?

There’s a time for everything. There’s a time to say, “Hey, you need the Lord Jesus Christ,” and then there are times when I need to shut up and save somebody’s life because they’re dying right in front of me.


I would imagine that not everyone is receptive to your message.

One day, I was working in a hospital and I saved a man’s life. By God’s grace, we were able to put a stent in his heart and save him from the widow maker. He ended up in the ICU, where he was barely making it. His wife was bawling and crying, there were nurses present, and suddenly the Lord spoke to me. He said, “Tell him about Jesus.” I’m like, “Lord Jesus, you’ve got the wrong man, you have the wrong time, and you got the wrong ICU!” Then it hit me: I tried to tell the Creator that He was wrong [laughs]. He spoke to my heart again and I’m like, “Jesus, look, there are four nurses here. This is not proper. This is not the right time to tell him about Jesus Christ.” And then, as I turned to exit the room, He said, “You need to turn around now, because this is your only chance to tell this man about me. He will never respond ever again.”

Now I’m sweating. I’m sure I’m going to get reported; somebody’s going to say something and the hospital administration is going to come down hard on me. In that moment, I decided that I didn’t care. It was more important for me to be obedient. I was doing anything illegal. I wasn’t doing anything immoral. I was just sharing the love of Jesus Christ. Imagine if I had discovered a cure for COVID-19 and I only shared it with myself and my family. Shame on me. Jesus Christ is love. He is goodness. He is great. He has mercy. Jesus Christ is the cure for the soul. Everyone born in sin is going to die one day, and we only have two places to go – heaven or hell. Jesus said, “I’m the way, the truth, and the light. Nobody comes to the Father except through me.”

On the way out the door I thought, “What gonna happen if he dies tonight?” So, I went back to him and explained that he had almost died. He thanked me for saving his life, and I explained that there was a moment when I actually watched him die on the table. I said, “Your coronary artery was blocked 100%, but now the flow is open and your heart’s happy because it’s receiving nutrition.” I explained that Jesus had done the same for us on Calvary. He died for you. He died for me. He died on the cross to save us. I said, “If you accept his blood and say, ‘Lord God, I’m a sinner,’ then the artery to your soul will be unblocked.”

I asked him if he would pray with me, and he did. Now, everybody’s looking at me. There are even more nurses in the room, and I just know for sure that I’m in trouble. I didn’t care. The patient had tears running down his cheeks. His wife was bawling. One of the nurses came up to me after I left the room and she said, “Dr. Kojoglanian, I’ve been in an ICU nurse for 25 years, and I’ve never, ever seen something so beautiful. The wife comes after me next. She goes, “We’ve been praying for my husband for 15 years – me, my family, the whole church – but he has not come to Christ. And finally, he comes to Christ because of what you did.” That is the beauty of Jesus Christ. He tells me to use the gifts that he’s given me. Jesus does the hard part. In this case, all I had to do was start the conversation.


Your ministry has taken you all over the world.

There’s a certain joy that comes from serving people. Whether we’re in the Philippines, Singapore, Hong Kong, Armenia, Argentina, or Africa, we are there for a very specific reason. If I go and tell people that Jesus loves them and they need to be saved, that is the ultimate reward, but that doesn’t make a lot of practical sense. We first honor the people by helping them medically. We work in some very crude conditions, because we’re talking about Third World countries in many cases. There’s barely any water. The people are indigent. They don’t have shoes or adequate clothing. They don’t have food. We treat them as patients first, and we do it dirt cheap. We recruit nurses and doctors through my ministry, Beacon of Hearts, and we provide them with medication for things like diabetes, hypertension, and high cholesterol. And then, when we’ve addressed their medical needs, we preach the gospel of Jesus Christ. It’s beautiful, because we get to touch the hearts of the patients that we serve. We get to touch the body, the mind, the heart, and the soul.

Photo Courtesy Dr. Sam Kojoglanian

Final Question: If you had one piece of advice for others, what would that be?

You have to put your faith in Jesus Christ. It’s important to stay low, stay humble, stay true, stay obedient, and serve mankind. I fail on a daily basis, but I am sold out on Jesus Christ, so my failures are transformed into opportunities. I’m His servant, and because of that I can serve others. Trust the Word of God. Believe that Jesus died on the cross for your sins. You will find yourself blessed in ways that were previously unimaginable.

Written By: Michael D. McClellan |

David Tong’s office has a view of the courtyard where Sir Isaac Newton once lived, and just beyond that, the location of the famous apple tree that gave birth to Newton’s theory of gravitation. Tong, like Newton, is a fellow of Trinity College, and his gig as theoretical physicist at the University of Cambridge comes with a myriad of such history-infused perks. He’s lectured in the same room as Michael Faraday, considered the godfather of electromagnetism; roamed the same halls as Sir J.J. Thomson, the Nobel Laureate credited with the discovery of the electron; and worked in the same lab (Cavendish Laboratory) where 30 researchers have gone on to win Nobel Prizes. Tong’s area of focus is quantum field theory, a topic made popular in the mainstream by the Large Hadron Collider, located in Geneva, Switzerland. Remember the LHC? The switch got flipped, and billions of protons flew around a seventeen-mile loop at nearly the speed of light until they smashed together hard, harder than any subatomic particles have ever been smashed together on earth. It was the greatest, most anticipated, most expensive experiment in the history of mankind. It also proved the existence of the elusive Higgs boson, better-known in pop culture as the “God particle,” which was the last holdout particle remaining hidden during the quest to check the accuracy of the Standard Model of Physics. Tong, like the rest of the scientific community at the time, was keenly interested in the experiments at the LCH, but he was hardly surprised by the results.

“It was almost anticlimactic,” Tong says of the July 4, 2012, discovery of the Higgs. “The science had long predicted the existence of the Higgs boson, and the fact that it agreed with the Standard Model made absolutely perfect sense. Nonetheless, it was a profound discovery.”

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Tong pauses. He understands that, for most of us, the Standard Model is a complete and utter snoozefest.

“The theory, to put it simply, is the pinnacle of science,” he continues, in his gentlemanly British accent. “It’s the greatest theory we’ve ever come up with, and yet we’ve given it the most astonishingly rubbish name you’ve ever heard of. The Standard Model. You can’t get much more boring than that.”

Born in Crawley, England, David Tong came of age at a time when Britain was being convulsed by a social, cultural and political counter-revolution. Margaret Thatcher emerged as the political face of the decade. There was violence on the football terraces and on the inner-city streets. Graffiti artists like Robert Del Naja, otherwise known as 3D, came to symbolize the disaffected youth in the dark dystopia of 1980s Bristol. The forces that drove the punks and new wave bands that followed them were similar to those that motivated the Thatcherite ideologues – profound desire for consensus-breaking transformation. This was also a time of great innovation in pop music, as bands inspired by the can-do attitude of the punks and by the art-school cool of David Bowie began to experiment with synthesisers and computers, new technologies that would change forever the way music was made. Tong is a reflection of this creative-yet-turbulent period in British history. He emerged from humble beginnings, growing up in a working class neighborhood, himself as ordinary a boy as you might imagine. The 2008 winner of the Adams Prize, the highest honor at Cambridge University, is as down-to-earth as any big thinker that you’ll ever meet, a real genius who made it Cambridge on his own steam, socioeconomic barriers be damned.

“That period was hard on Britain’s working class,” Tong replies, when asked about those bleak days during the ‘80s. “We weren’t alone in that respect. Everyone else was in it right along with us.”

Trinity College – University of Cambridge

Talk to him today and you’ll discover that Tong’s just as comfortable ranking Aerosmith’s discography as he is theorizing about dark energy, the mysterious antigravitational force causing everything in the universe to repel everything else. Close your eyes and it’s easy to imagine him making regular hit-and-run raids on London to visit clubs such as the Wag, the Electric Ballroom, the Cha-Cha under the arches at Charing Cross, and the Camden Palace. That’s because Tong, for all of his genius, did his fair share of partying during his late teens and early twenties.

“Let’s just say there were times when I could have applied myself more,” he says with a laugh. “It took a while for me to prioritize things properly.”

Tong’s life at that time, like everything else during the mid-80s, became becalmed. Britain’s fiercest political battles had been fought and won. The miners were defeated. Free-market fundamentalism was the new orthodoxy. People began to feel richer. The pop music was dismal. The culture became coarser and more reactionary. Tong would make his way north from Crawley to London in search of the latest concert, unsure of how he’d make it back home after. Memories just as meaningful as his road to higher learning.

“I had so much fun on those trips to London,” he says. “We got to see so many great concerts, and some bad ones, too.”

Tong attended Hazelwick, a comprehensive school whose notable pupils include Laura Moffatt, a Crawley native and former member of Parliament. From there he attended the University of Nottingham, earning his Bachelor of Science in Mathematical Physics. His next stop was at Kings College in London, where he earned his Masters of Science in Mathematics. In 1995 he headed to Swansea, where he attended the University of Wales and completed his PhD in Theoretical Physics. All of this setting the stage for his jump across the pond – to the University of Washington as a visiting student, then to Columbia University for his postdoctoral research, followed by stops at MIT and Stanford.

David Tong lectures during the Royal Institution’s Christmas Lectures series

“I grew up at MIT,” Tong says, reflecting on his journey to the hallowed halls of Cambridge. “Until I got there, I wasn’t truly invested as I should have been. At MIT, I learned what it takes to be a serious physicist, and I think that’s when I truly applied myself.”

Today, Tong is fully invested in quantum field theory. His lectures include classical mechanics, electromagnetism, quantum mechanics, condensed matter, and statistical physics. The charismatic professor has been a part of the Royal Institution’s Christmas Lectures (be sure to check him out on YouTube), which date back to Faraday’s time at Cambridge. And he continues to ponder the biggest problems in our universe, including the ever-elusive quest for a theory of everything.

“If you are a theoretical physicist, it’s something you endeavor to – but it’s also something that you’re likely to fail at. You know this going in. It’s the price of admission.”

Tong’s generation of theoretical physicists is only the most recent to embark on it. The idea seemed logical enough when Einstein first set out on it in the 1920s. If general relativity explains the universe from afar – why gravity pulls the earth around the sun – and quantum mechanics explains the world up close – how atoms, protons, and neutrons react to electromagnetism and the strong and weak forces – surely there must be a way to put the two theories together. After all, whether cosmic in size or minuscule, the particles and forces that govern our universe were all born at the same primordial moment. Yet Einstein failed. And in the interim, armies of physicists, equipped with similarly well-intentioned yet ultimately faulty or unprovable ideas, have followed him to the same well-trod dead end. Tong knows this going in, but that doesn’t make him any less determined.

“We theoretical physicists are gluttons for punishment,” he says, chuckling. “The only way you make a breakthrough is to keep hammering way. It’s what we do.”

Let’s jump in a DeLorean and time travel back to your childhood.

To be honest, it’s not the most interesting time of my life. I grew up in Crawley, England, which is a commuter town about 30 miles south of London. It’s an ugly town [laughs]. It’s got Britain’s second largest airport next to it – Gatwick Airport – so there was zero unemployment at a time in the 1980s when unemployment was rife in the country. I don’t have many complaints. It was a fine place to be, but it’s not a place that I’m desperate to go back to – actually, that’s not quite true because my mom still lives there, and everybody wants to go back home and see their mom! Other than that, there’s not too much going for it.


What was the school system like in Crawley, England?

Education is clearly important if you’re going to be a theoretical physicist. I went to a fairly good school, but there is a gap in this country between private education and what you guys in the States call public education. In the UK we have this Orwellian speak. Public schools are the fancy ones you pay 30,000 pounds a year to attend, and then you have the state schools, which is the kind that I went to. I had an okay education. In the context of my larger family, there wasn’t a history of education or going to university. No one in my family had ever gone to university before, so I was something of a trailblazer in that respect. I had very supportive parents, my mom in particular. She was a schoolteacher, so she really thought that education was crucial. I went off to a place called Nottingham. My American friends think this is fictional, because that’s where Robin Hood is from, but it really exists.

The Large Hadron Collider

When did you become interested in science?

Around the age of seventeen. I was always good at math, but at some point in my life I learned that there was this bigger thing out there called physics. I think the moment was probably when I got Stephen Hawking’s A Brief History of Time for my birthday. Until then, it never occurred to me that there was something called quantum mechanics, or that there were black holes. You don’t do any of the stuff in school, and it just blew my mind. It was utterly astonishing. And then on top of that, I learned from Hawking’s book that there existed this job – being a theoretical physicist. That had never occurred to me. The fact that you could just think about these things for a living was equally as mind blowing. I decided very early on that this is what I wanted to do, while also realizing that it was probably not where I was going to end up. Somehow, everybody gets diverted, so I thought that it was unlikely that I would become a theoretical physicist.

David Tong – Photo Courtesy Royal Institution

What did your family think of your career path?

My family did encourage me along the way, but always with a sense of bafflement. I don’t think they ever really understood what I was doing, but they always made it clear that they were extremely proud of me. Going to university, being the first person in the family to do that, there was a clear sense of support in that way. My wider family were genuinely baffled. At some point when I went on and did a PhD, my grandfather took me to one side and sort of let me know that one degree was okay, and maybe the Masters was pushing it, but why do a third degree in physics? He told me, “You know, your cousin…he’s a few years younger than you, but he’s got a good job. He’s laying carpet, he’s got his own van. It’s about time that you did something like this. When are you going to get your own van?” [Laughs.] His advice came from a sense of love. Actually, my cousin is doing tremendously well with his carpet business and is earning much more than I ever will. So my grandfather was probably right with his advice.


Was there a particular teacher or class that helped fuel your interest in science and mathematics?

I think everybody has wonderful teachers at one time or another during their schooling. Some of them I don’t think I was very nice to, to be honest. Maybe I’m exaggerating a little bit. Mrs. Salter was one of these teachers that was very strict, very stern. You really wouldn’t get a smile out of her, but she was an amazing math teacher.


Did you ever struggle in school?

I almost bombed physics. I had a year where we really didn’t have a physics teacher, and I was bombing physics because I didn’t understand it. She was a biology teacher, and she was saying stuff that didn’t make sense, so it wasn’t really working for me. I wasn’t alone in that respect. I think everybody in the class was bombing, so they decided to put in a proper physics teacher. He was an old Air Force guy with no hair and a very distinctive head, as if it had been molded by his Air Force helmet [laughs]. Mr. Hobbs. Again, very stern.  When he started explaining stuff, it just clicked. Suddenly it all started making sense.


You went to high school at Hazelwick. Please tell me about that.

Hazelwick is a Comprehensive School. This means it is a state school, also known as a commoner school here in the UK. It was run by a headteacher that sort of had delusions of grandeur. He thought it was more prestigious than it actually was, and yet I think that vision did turn it into something more prestigious. By that I mean it was a school which focused very much on academic excellence, even though it was the kind of school where that typically wasn’t the priority.


You’ve described yourself as a geek in high school. What were you into during this period in your life?

When I was a young teenager I was super nerdy. Super geeky. I was into computer games. I had friends, but I wore a big, thick-rimmed glasses, kind of like the ones I wear now, although they are a little cooler now than they were considered back then. At some point I started meeting friends who were way cooler than I was, and I slowly realized that there is a bit more to life than just sums.

I had a set of friends that were into really bad ‘80s metal bands. By the time I was 17 we were going up to London and going to all of these rock concerts. There were times when we were sleeping out because we had missed the last train home. We saw some great bands like Aerosmith, but we also saws some really terrible bands as well. Poison – why was I into the band Poison and their song Every Rose Has Its Thorn?

Aerosmith – One of the many bands David Tong saw in concert during the 1980s

Scientists are often stereotyped as humorless, arrogant, and introverted. That’s not you at all.

Oh yes, I would describe myself as humorless, arrogant, and introverted [laughs]! Have you seen The Big Bang Theory? I have to say that there is a little bit of Sheldon Cooper in all of us theoretical physicists. Maybe not quite that level of arrogance…it’s just under the surface, I think most of us are just hiding it well.


You received your Bachelor of Science in Mathematical Physics from the University of Nottingham. What did you do for fun?

I’m not sure I even remember extracurriculars. There was lots of doing what young people do, like clubbing, although looking back on it I’m not even sure I liked nightclubs. Looking back at it, there was lots of time spent in nightclubs and going out drinking. Maybe just a bit too much partying, to be honest. But I got a good education there.


Was Nottingham your first choice?

I applied to Oxford, but Oxford didn’t want me so I went to Nottingham. I got a good education there, that’s important to stress. England is a bit strange; if you are an undergraduate in England, it’s Oxford and Cambridge, and then everything else is considered a cut below. I guess the closest comparison in the United States is the Ivy League. And it’s extremely competitive here. I can see that now, as a professor at Cambridge. We get the best people from all around the world and put them together and challenge them. As a professor, I think that is fantastic. However, had I come here when I was 18, I think I would have struggled to no end. I wouldn’t have been able to compete with the students from the super fancy schools, or the brilliant minds excelling in the International Math Olympiad and International Physics Olympiad competitions. I think I would’ve probably ended up doing something else. So, somehow not getting into Oxford was a bit of good luck. It allowed me a little bit more time to learn physics, and to learn about myself as well.


From there it was on to Kings College, in London. Was the city a distraction?

Yes. I spent a year in London during the mid-90s, earning my Masters in Mathematics. Take any guy who’s 21 and put them in the middle of London, and they might not be doing as much work as they’d hoped. I had two years like this. Some years later I had a year in New York, where I had the best time outside of academics, and maybe my physics career didn’t quite progress as it should. I needed to refocus.


You earned your PhD in Theoretical Physics at the University of Wales, Swansea.

Swansea wasn’t considered a top rate university, but they had just hired a new Theoretical Physics Department, which consisted of maybe eight people, all very young, all super ambitious, and all super smart. It was the best place to be. There was no hierarchy. You’re going out with the professors for beer in the evening, or doing picnics down on the beach together…there was a real sense of everyone starting something exciting. I had a brilliant advisor who was doing cutting edge stuff. We were learning about string theory, which was really quite exciting.


In 1997 you spent two years as a visiting student at the University of Washington.

Seattle is a hell of a town. I think it was the first time I had left the UK in four or five years. I remember the plane flying in over the mountains, and I had never seen mountains in my life before. I didn’t have anywhere to stay when I arrived, so I stayed in a youth hostel between Christmas and New Year’s Day. What I’ve come to learn is that there are very few clear days in Seattle, but one of my first days there was the rare exception. I stepped out of that youth hostel and it was utterly clear and you could see the mountains of the Olympic Peninsula just silhouetted in the horizon. My word, it just took my breath away. It’s utterly spectacular. It was a wonderful time. The physics department was prestigious, and also you had many extraordinarily talented people, including David Thouless, who had recently won the Nobel Prize. For the first time I was immersed in an environment where I was learning physics in a way that I hadn’t before.


The next step was your postdocs. What’s that like?

The way it works is that you do your PhD, and then six years of postdocs. These are usually two or three year positions. It’s wonderful, really, because they allow you to do anything you want. They give you a desk and a computer, and they just say, “Do your best work.” The flipside is that in two or three years you’re going to be unemployed and you are going to have to find another job.


Where did you conduct your postdoctoral research?

I think I applied for 120 positions the first time around, basically everywhere on the planet that did my kind of theoretical physics. I got one offer. That one offer was in Mumbai, India, so that is where I went. After marrying my wife, moving to India ranks as possibly the greatest decision of my life. It’s amazing there, just a wonderful place. In terms of science, this was 20 years ago, and back then India wasn’t a country that could inject a lot of money into science. Fortunately for me, theoretical physics is dirt cheap – you need maybe a pen and paper and a computer – so that wasn’t really a barrier. They also had some of the best theoretical physicists in the world, so it was the perfect place to learn. And I was able to immerse myself into the country’s amazing culture, music, and food, while making the best friends. I don’t think I’ve ever laughed as much in my life as I did in that one year in India. It really was a spectacular experience.

Sir Isaac Newton

Your research career includes stops at Columbia University, MIT, Stanford, and the University of Cambridge. That’s a pretty impressive portfolio.

Columbia University was fun. There was a time in the 1950s when the Physics Department at Columbia University was the center of the physics world, and every single name on the corridor had Nobel Prizes or was going to have Nobel Prizes. The fact that I was enjoying New York City – perhaps a little too much – meant that I probably didn’t get as much out of physics as I could have. I definitely enjoyed myself there. Then, two months later, I got this offer from MIT. That was really my dream job. I was seriously torn about whether I should stay in New York, which presumably meant dropping physics, or whether I should go to MIT. Well, MIT is usually ranked as the best physics department in the world, so I felt that the opportunity was too good to turn down.

In many ways, MIT was where I really learned to become a physicist. It was late in my life, I had my PhD, and I had done three years of postdocs. But moving there and seeing very smart people working incredibly hard and with unbridled passion – people that had won the Nobel Prize or who were on the cusp of winning it – that kind of turned my head. It made me realize that if you want to be good at physics, then you have to be very serious. I just looked around: If they are obviously smarter than me, and they are working much, much harder than me, then what chance do I have? I think that’s when I kind of grew up a little bit, to be honest. I realized that physics can be a fun hobby, but if you really want to make it into something more, then it requires a dedication. It was probably at MIT when I first really did that.


Let’s talk about the Royal Institution and the history there. Is the desk where you’ve lectured the same desk that Michael Faraday gave his famous Christmas lecture in 1856?

I make a comment on the YouTube video during my lecture, which says that if that is Faraday’s original desk, then he could have made life very easy for himself.


How so?

Because there’s a three-pin plug socket, and he could’ve just discovered electricity there [laughs]. I think the desk has been replaced at least once, but aside from the socket it’s an exact replica. It was probably replaced 150 or 200 years ago, and then modified to have electricity.


Some giants of science have lectured in that room, Michael Faraday and Humphry Davy among them. Please tell me about these two men.

Humphry Davy was the first Professor of Chemistry at the Royal Institution. He was a very prominent chemist who discovered at least four elements of the periodic table. He’s a pretty impressive guy. Faraday was his protégé. Surprisingly, Faraday was almost entirely uneducated. He left school at the age of 14 to become a bookbinder. He somehow pushed his way into the Royal institution to work as a lab tech for Humphry Davy, and from there pushed his way to become one of the greatest scientists of all time.

Michael Faraday

I’ve read where the lecture series was Faraday’s idea.

When Faraday was 17, he started this lecture series at the Royal Institution, called the Friday Evening Discourse. He gave most of the lectures for the first 40 years, and they used to be held every single week. Now they only do them once a month, but they have been running since the 1700s, so the tradition is still there.


And now we can add David Tong to the esteemed list of lecturers.

It was such an honor to receive the invitation and speak in this room. There are some traditions that aren’t clear from the YouTube video, one of which dates back to the early 1800s. The story goes that a guy named Charles Wheatstone was due to give a lecture, but he was a very nervous speaker, and, as it turns out, he was also a runner. Just before Wheatstone was supposed to turn up, he abandoned the lecture and Faraday had to stand in a give a lecture in his place. So to prevent this from happening, for the last 200+ years, they have a tradition of locking the speaker in a room for 10 minutes before the lecture.

Now, to say I was nervous to give this lecture was an understatement. To be locked in a room for 10 minutes before I was supposed to go on…my heart was beating through my chest! They finally came and let me out, and escorted me to the lecture hall entrance. There were two guys in uniform holding these big, fancy doors, and through the door I could almost hear somebody introducing me. Then they opened the door and in I went. The tradition is that you enter, but you don’t say, “Hello.” You don’t say, “Welcome.” You just start off with the lecture. So, it’s a very strange experience. I loved it. It was really a thrill to do that.

David Tong – Photo Courtesy Royal Institution

Today, you teach at Cambridge. That’s quite an honor.

I’m associated a with place called Trinity College, which is a college within Cambridge University. Let me say that history hangs heavy. I have two offices; my departmental office is very nice and modern, and I have blackboards everywhere. My other office is located in Trinity College. It’s in a building that was built in the 1600s, and it overlooks an astonishing court – if I crane my neck I can see where Newton lived, and beyond that, the spot where his apple tree was located. The people who have passed through Trinity include J.J. Thomson, who discovered the electron; Ernest Rutherford, who discovered the structure of the atom; and James Clark Maxwell, who discovered the theories of electricity and magnetism and who put Faraday’s work on proper mathematical footing. The list just goes on and on and on. At some point you just have to shrug and laugh it off, because these are not people whose footsteps you can fill. So, it’s a privilege, it’s an utter privilege.


Do you ever think about coming from such humble beginnings and being where you are today?

Almost on a daily basis. Certainly when I’m lecturing. Paul Dirac was a student here, and all he did was discover the equation for the electron – that, and win the Nobel Prize in Physics [laughs]. It is an astonishing story, really; Paul was staring into a fire when the equation for the electron suddenly came to him. It took him a long time to understand what it meant – about three years – and that’s when he realized that antimatter exists. He hadn’t just come up with the equation for the electron, but also an equation for another particle that had the same mass but had the opposite charge. Then, if the two particles with different charges came together, they would annihilate any burst of energy. Six months after he came to that realization, antimatter was discovered in experiments. To come up with something like that with just pure thought alone is mind-boggling.  I’m no Dirac, but when I get to stand up in our beautiful lecture halls and write his equation on the blackboards and explain to our students for the first time what it means…there is something very special in that.


As a theoretical physicist, what is your particular area of focus?

I work in something called quantum field theory. It’s a strange subject because it’s the basis of all of our laws of physics. Everything that we know at a fundamental level of the universe is written in terms of quantum field theory, and yet we really don’t understand it at all. My mathematician friends will tell me that I’m talking nonsense when I do quantum field theory, and that’s because they need to define things very rigorously. For them, they need to make sure that every step is very well-defined; in more than 70 years, nobody has managed to do that with quantum field theory.


Does your work require a certain amount of creativity?

As physicists, we are sort of flying by the seat of our pants. We are working with equations and mathematics that the mathematicians haven’t yet invented, so we are way ahead of them in that regard. If you take a wrong step with the math, you just get nonsense answers. You need intuition as a physicist to avoid taking the wrong step and still try to get the right answer. So yes, there is high level of creativity involved.


What drew you to the theoretical side of physics, as opposed to the experimental side?

That’s not a hard question to answer – if I pick up a screwdriver, I’m going to be using the wrong end every single time [laughs]. I’m hapless, absolutely hapless, when it comes to almost anything practical.


The discovery of the Higgs boson was such a big deal that it captured the imagination of millions worldwide.

This might sound a little bit strange, but I was a bit blasé about it. The science told us that it was there. That much was absolutely clear. We have this theory called the Standard Model that involves different forces and different particles interacting with each other, and yet there was this one missing ingredient, but it was such an integral part of the theory that it couldn’t not be there. I don’t think I’m alone in this. I think most physicists thought it was just absolutely obvious, and it would be nice when it was finally discovered, but that we weren’t really going to learn anything. And then the Higgs boson was discovered, and I was just blown away.

It’s just astonishing to think that scientists could be so sure of the Higgs boson’s existence with just with pen and paper. Then, theorize that if you build a machine that costs $10 billion – the greatest engineering feat ever – and you smash these particles together at unprecedented energies, you’re going to see a bump that has particular properties in some graph, proving its existence. And yet, that’s what happened. There’s something really astonishing about that achievement. I sort of felt something similar about the gravitational wave discovery several years ago. It’s obvious that if you take the Einstein equation, gravitational waves exist. It’s far from obvious that you can build a machine to actually detect them. So again, I was a bit blasé. You take for granted that they will be detected at some point in time. But then it happens, and you’re reminded that this is such an incredible moment. We’re talking about some of mankind’s greatest scientific and technological achievements.

The Large Hadron Collider – CERN, Geneva, Switzerland

Do you think the recent discovery of neutrino oscillations challenges the Standard Model?

It challenges it, but I think in a fairly minor way. It’s not too difficult to take the Standard Model and just add a mass for the neutrino. This was not a big surprise. It’s also a slightly different discovery in the sense that it took decades, with hints from solar neutrinos and more hints from nuclear reactor neutrinos. People painstakingly put this together, and then it was finally proven by the SNO experiment that Art McDonald and others were on. It wasn’t like the discovery of the Higgs boson, or the discovery of gravitational waves, where there was a pop culture moment and a press conference by the mainstream media to announce it. It was something that built up much more slowly in the consciousness of physicists. Having said that, it is true that adding the mass for neutrinos to the Standard Model opens new questions, as discoveries always do. It opens up deeper questions about where the mass comes from, so it’s certainly one of the more interesting questions in science today. I’m one of these people who get excited about everything in physics, so it was a big deal to me.


Are you surprised by how well the Standard Model has held up?

We all thought that the discovery of the Higgs boson would sort of open the door to the next level of discoveries to whatever lies beyond the standard model, whatever the next level of nature is. We have lots of ideas. We have really fancy, zany ideas about things like supersymmetry or extra dimensions in the universe, all of these great things that we were hoping the Large Hadron Collider would discover. None of this came true. The Large Hadron Collider has done extraordinarily well since the discovery of the Higgs boson. It has done millions of experiments, and every single one of them agrees perfectly with the Standard Model, which should be cause for celebration because it’s taken us 70 years to develop the Standard Model. And now that we’ve got it, we can calculate anything we like.

Artistic representation of dark matter. Image credits: tchaikovsky2, Deviant Art

Why would breaking the Standard Model be a win for science?

We do these extremely complicated experiments and everything agrees perfectly. That in itself sounds like a win, but science is all about pushing the envelope. Everybody wants to prove Einstein wrong, because they want to be the next Einstein. That’s being a little bit facetious, but the point is, it’s when your theory breaks down that you’ve managed to make the next big step and understand things deeper. The Standard Model hasn’t broken down. The entire scientific community doesn’t understand why it works as well as it does. There are so many questions. Why isn’t it cracking yet? Why aren’t we seeing gaps in the Standard Model?


Do you have a theory about that?

Everybody in the scientific community has their own approach. I have one, which is not the norm, and certainly not what most people are doing. As I mentioned before, there are lots of things we don’t understand about quantum field theory. Some are things that you can just brush under the rug and not worry about. With respect to the Standard Model, I think it might be time to lift up the rug. I think we need to start asking slightly harder questions about what quantum field theory means. What is it doing? Are there patterns there that we’ve missed? I think it’s time to take start exploring very well-explored theories in completely different ways.


What is the one thing today that excites you the most about physics?

Five percent of the energy in our universe is made up of stuff in the periodic table…things that are made of atoms, such as you and me, the stars in the universe, the dust in the universe, planets…stuff that we understand, basically. The other 95% is completely unknown. Still, we know it’s there, and we know that it falls into two different categories: Dark matter and dark energy. While they have similar names, they really have very little to do with each other. I’m not working on either of these things today because I don’t have any good ideas. In fact, no one really has any good ideas. But that’s the exciting thing about dark matter and dark energy.


That’s a big percentage of our universe.

About 25% of the universe is made up of dark matter. Dark matter is super exciting and interesting, but I’m not sure it’s that baffling, conceptually. Dark matter is some invisible particle that we haven’t made here on earth. We know it’s there, floating around in space. In fact, the galaxies that we see likely exist within dark matter halos. It would be brilliant to understand this better, but at the end of the day it’s almost certainly some sort of invisible particle.

The other 70% of the universe is much more baffling. The other 70% is made up of dark energy, which is an antigravitational force causing everything in the universe to repel everything else. The effect is that the universe is expanding at an accelerating rate over time, rather than slowing down. That’s because of this antigravitational force that we call dark energy, which is making everything fly apart at an increasingly fast rate. What the hell is that? That is just weird.

Photo Courtesy David Tong

Final Question: You’ve achieved great success in your life. If you could offer one piece of advice, what would that be?

I don’t think theoretical physicists should be giving advice on life [laughs]. That’s not where we are the experts. But, I can give advice on pursuing science. Do it if you love it, because it’s a fairly miserable experience. You spend most of your time just being utterly stuck and utterly confused, and not having anywhere to turn to find the answers. There has to be a passion for the big picture, and yet you must get a level of joy from finding the very tiny, infinitesimal answers, and also from making infinitesimal progress. The little things have to be bigger than the misery.

Written By: Michael D. McClellan |

Lauren Swickard just saved Christmas.

In a year that has seen Broadway shuttered, Wimbledon cancelled, and the Tokyo Olympics postponed, the last thing any of us needed was a Christmas season without fresh, high-quality, feel-good Christmas content to consume. Swickard, the multihyphenate powerhouse behind A California Christmas, has delivered in a big way, writing, producing, and starring (opposite her husband, General Hospital star Josh Swickard) in a film about a wealthy charmer who poses as a ranch hand to get a hardworking farmer to sell her family’s land before Christmas. The Netflix Original, produced by ESX Entertainment, begins streaming worldwide on December 14.

“Getting this movie made is a dream come true,” Swickard says. “There were so many challenges with COVID-19, but we had a great team. Everyone pulled together, worked hard, and stayed focused in spite of what was going on around us.”

Lauren Swickard and Josh Swickard
A California Christmas

That A California Christmas even made it this far qualifies as a Christmas miracle. In March, when the coronavirus pandemic stopped Hollywood in its tracks, not many in the industry were optimistic that holiday films like A California Christmas would see the light of day. In Swickard’s case, everything broke perfectly: Quarantined, she wrote the script in three weeks, bouncing plot points and dialog off of Josh, who was home during the four-month shutdown at General Hospital. She then pitched the script to Ali Afshar, the head of ESX Entertainment, who was so impressed that the deal was done on the spot. The decision to cast Lauren and Josh as the leads not only guarantied onscreen chemistry (the two had met during the filming of Roped, and were married not long after), it also came with the built-in advantage of the leads having been quarantined together. Finally, Afshar offered up his Petaluma ranch as the film’s primary location; by shooting A California Christmas in an NBA-like “bubble” environment, and with testing and protocols followed to a tee, Netflix was convinced that the project could be completed in time for the holiday season. And just like that, Swickard was able to see her dream come true.

“We had a lot of things go right every step of the way,” Swickard says. “It was a combination of hard work and good luck.”

That Lauren Swickard is the driving force behind A California Christmas comes as no surprise to her inner-circle. Swickard may look the part of a Hollywood starlet, but the disarmingly beautiful actor is a blood-and-guts warrior when it comes to her passion: Writing.

Lauren Swickard

“It’s something I do every day,” Swickard says without missing a beat. “I’ve always wanted to be a writer, and I’m thankful the persistence has paid off. It’s surreal to see a writing credit next to A California Christmas.”

Swickard has written several screenplays, including A California Christmas, and is currently hard at work on writing Casa Grande, a five-episode political drama series picked up by Warner Bros. That award-winning Argentine director Gabriela Tagliavini (How to Break Up With Your Douchebag) has been tapped to direct the series speaks volumes to Swickard’s writing.

Casa Grande is on the fast track,” she says. “The series follows several families in the farmland of Northern California as it navigates universal themes of class, immigration, culture and family. We have a team working very hard ensure that the subject matter is authentic. I’m very excited about how it’s coming together and can’t wait to see it come out.”

Born in Cincinnati, Swickard started out in dance, excelling in ballet to the point that she later enrolled in New York City’s prestigious School of American Ballet. Founded by George Balanchine and the single greatest cultivator of aspiring American ballet dancers, SAB remains close to Swickard’s heart.

Josh Swickard and Lauren Swickard
Photo Courtesy Lauren Swickard

“So many great dancers have passed through the school’s studios,” says Swickard. “Allegra Kent, Darci Kristler, the list goes on and on. I loved my time there.”

An injury changed the trajectory of Swickard’s dance career. After a brief stop at Ohio University (to study journalism, no less), she made the leap into acting. Since then she’s steadily built an impressive acting resume, including roles in Dear White People and Roped. She’s also pulled double-duty, starring in two roles for the Lifetime movie Twisted Twin.

“My most challenging project yet,” she says, smiling. She pauses. “Until A California Christmas. Writing, producing, and acting in it was very rewarding, and I’m very thankful. But wearing so many different hats was also exhausting at times.”

That Swickard dreamed big and worked hard is good news for the rest of us. A California Christmas streams at a time when the world badly needs a healthy dose of holiday cheer.

“It’s been a difficult year,” Swickard says. “Hopefully this movie will help people forget about the pandemic for a couple of hours. Hopefully it will keep them smiling for a long while after that.”

Let’s talk about your latest project, A California Christmas. Without spoiling anything, what can you tell me about the movie?

I like to say that A California Christmas is the classic save-the-ranch story. It’s about a girl, her mom, and her younger sister. I play Callie Burnay, a girl who has a lot on her plate. She’s dealing with a mother who is battling lung cancer, and she also has a little sister that she has to help raise, so she’s basically taking care of her family while keeping up an entire ranch by herself. When it becomes too much, her mom suggests that she hire a ranch hand – which she grudgingly ends up doing. Then we learn about a San Francisco-based shipping company called Van Aston Enterprises, and how it wants to buy a big plot of land to put in a new shipping facility. Because the Burnay Ranch is going under, and is just inches away from foreclosure every month, the company thinks it’s found the perfect target. That’s when they decide to go in and offer the family money to buy the ranch. So, Joseph Van Aston, who is played by my real-life husband, gets sent to Petaluma, California, to convince the owners of the Burnay Ranch to sell their land. He doesn’t know Callie Burnay, and he doesn’t realize how strongly she is against selling – although he will soon find out.


Are conditions ripe for romance?

Very much so! When Joseph Van Aston arrives at the ranch, he spills coffee all over himself and has to change clothes. Callie actually mistakes him for a ranch hand. Joseph, seeing it as a perfect opportunity, decides to play the part so that he can get to know Callie a little bit and see what makes her tick. He doesn’t expect to fall in love. So it’s a false identity, romantic comedy Christmas movie. It’s coming out as a Netflix Original on December 14. We couldn’t have asked for a better home for the film.

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A California Christmas was made during a global pandemic.

We were fortunate to be one of the first productions up and running. We knew that the rest of Hollywood was watching us to see how it went, but everyone on set was careful to follow all the protocol to the best of our ability. We lost two hours each day due to our precautionary guidelines, and yet we still made our days without missing a beat. It wasn’t surprising, because our team was full of some of the hardest workers I’ve ever met.


What kinds of adjustments did you have to make?

We were something of a guinea pig for Hollywood. We were initially doing the blood tests, the kind where you could prick your finger and get the results back in eight minutes. That meant we could test on the same day that we were to go to the set. Then they came around and said that those tests weren’t valid anymore, so we had to delay production by a week while we worked out a deal with another lab, and arranged for nurses to come on set with the nasal swabs. The cast and crew was on hold at a hotel where we filmed in Sonoma Valley. It was beautiful, but we were also in Petaluma, which is in the middle of nowhere. We were supposed to be there for 2 ½ weeks, but we ended up being there for 34 days.


This may be the new normal in Hollywood for the foreseeable future.

The world has certainly changed. Before the pandemic, I think I took things like in-person meetings and interactions for granted. I was in an acting class that I loved. I was driving from Studio City to Santa Monica to Century City, so I was all over Los Angeles auditioning and meeting with people all the time. In fact, at the time I felt a bit overwhelmed. I was like, “I’ve already driven to two offices today, why can’t I just send a tape to the casting offices instead?” Then once the pandemic hit, everything stopped. Acting classes, auditions, productions…everything was canceled. My husband is on a soap opera, General Hospital, and his show completely shut down. It was pretty scary, because the only way our industry works is by being in close contact with other people. There can be anywhere from 60-to-80 people on set when actors are doing a scene. That’s how many people it takes to make everything work. It was all very hard at first, and very surreal. I’ll never forget, Josh and I love watching American Idol, and then American Idol shut down. The next thing you know, the contestants had to sing from home. The new normal is going to take some getting used to [laughs].

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The preview for A California Christmas looks great! Where did the idea for the movie come from?

When the quarantine first happened, there were a lot of friends on social media who were being productive. They were diving into various health-based activities, and coming up with all kinds of creative, stay-at-home things to stay busy. Because I love to write, I thought, “Oh, I’m going to do a script,” and I started imagining what people would want to watch once the quarantine was over. I thought that the pandemic would surely be over by the holidays, and that a holiday movie would be the perfect way to entertain people. I was wrong about the pandemic, but I still feel that people are ready for a movie like A California Christmas.


This project came together quickly.

I wrote the script in three weeks. It was quite fun, because Josh was home with me while I was writing. It was the first time that I had written a script where I had my husband here to be my guinea pig. We would act out scenes while I was writing, so it was a very different process for me. It was so much fun. As I was creating the characters, my intention was not to perform as an actress in the movie. I only wanted to produce and write. But, as we kept working together, I started getting this idea that maybe I should pitch more than the script and the story. Maybe I should also pitch that Josh and I would be acting together in it as a married couple.


Two-part question: What were some of the challenges that you encountered making this film? And, what did you find the most enjoyable?

The biggest challenge was that we had to deal with the pandemic. That meant that there were a lot of things we had to take into consideration. For example, as a writer I had to write a lot of exterior scenes relative to the number of interior scenes. That’s because it’s not quite safe when there are so many crew members confined to a small space. The union also provided guidelines, so we had to make sure that we followed those as well. When we were location scouting, we had to ensure that interior scenes had two separate entrances, one for the actors and the other for the crew members. Those were just some of the challenges that we had to work around.

I think my most enjoyable and favorite part about making A California Christmas was working with my husband. It was so fun to really be able to play off of each other and use our natural chemistry. We had this great banter, where we would do a scene and I would look at him like, “We’ve got to do something else.” And he did the same thing to me. He’d go, “Oh no, babe. No, no, no,” and I’d be like, “You’re right. Let’s do it again.” It was really special, and something that I had never experienced with another actor before.

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A California Christmas was produced by ESX Entertainment.

ESX Entertainment is run by Ali Afshar, and this company is such a well-oiled machine. They’ve done something like 17 movies over the past three years, many of them in and around Petaluma. Ali is accustomed to working on tight schedules, challenging budgets, and things like that, but I’m sure he’s never made a movie under conditions quite like this. Still, he was determined to make this movie despite the coronavirus restrictions. It was such a great experience. The crew was so kind, and everyone was such a family. There were really no issues on the whole preproduction side. The same with the production side, except for the inconveniences caused by COVID. It ended up working out fantastically well.


You met your husband, actor Josh Swickard, on the set of Roped. Tell me about that.

We auditioned independently and were both offered the film. I was offered the role of Tracy Peterson first, but I was actually filming something else in Atlanta and couldn’t come back to Warner Bros. to do the chemistry read. Chemistry reads are common in movies, and are done with different pairings so that the director can get a feel for chemistry between the leads. In this case it didn’t happen, and Josh was cast as Colton Burtenshaw while I was in Atlanta. So, I didn’t meet Josh until two days before we were supposed to be in Petaluma.


I’m going to guess that the chemistry between the two of you was pretty darned good.

Yes, it was very good! We were on the Warner Bros. lot, where we were having rehearsal with the director. Josh had just returned from the movie ranch – he had to learn how to rope a calf for his role, so he had been training all day, but I didn’t know this. I show up to the lot, and Josh is dirty from head to toe – dirty cowboy boots, dirty jeans, dirty shirt. I immediately started making fun of him because I thought he was coming in character for the directors meeting. I thought, “Wow, you’re really going for this role!” So, that was our first interaction. Things went so well that he got my number underneath the iconic water tower on the Warner Bros. lot. We drive by that water tower all of the time. That was our special little meeting place.

Josh Swickard and Lauren Swickard

Did you start dating during the filming of Roped?

There was definite chemistry between us, but we decided that we weren’t going to act on that chemistry, we were going to have it be movie magic instead. It worked out great because we were so close during filming that we became friends first. I told him that maybe he could take me out on a date after filming had wrapped up. He did, and it was love at first date.


You starred in a lifetime movie called Twisted Twin.  What was that like?

That has to be my most satisfying role thus far in my career as an actress – or, I should say, roles! One twin was as sweet as could be, as sweet as honey, and the other one was just crazy evil. I actually loved playing the evil twin the most [laughs].


You’re outstanding in both roles.

Thank you! The director’s name is Jeff Hare. He was really great to work with, because he went out of his way to make me feel like it was my movie. I had so much creative control, which I didn’t expect but truly appreciated. Jeff was the best. It was also awesome to collaborate with my body double, who had the same measurements as me, and who had my same hair. You really can’t tell who is who from the back. It was very surreal!


You acted with Jennifer Taylor in that movie. What did you learn from such an accomplished actor as Jennifer?

Oh my gosh, she is such a pro. It’s really cool to see someone like Jennifer work in such a way where there is no aura of ego around her. She was one of the crew – she learned everybody’s names, from the PAs to the sound guys to everyone in between. She didn’t come across as the star that she is, she just wanted to be a part something special. The way she fit in gave it a family feel. It really is rare to meet someone of her stature that behaves like that on a set. I learned from her just how to be. I just want to Jennifer Taylor. She is just amazing.

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At one point you were going to be a ballerina.

Growing up in Cincinnati, my life was focused on one thing: Ballet, ballet, ballet. I was training with Russian coaches, coaches that were flying in from Europe, all of those sorts of things. I was definitely on track to become a professional ballerina, so I moved to New York City to dance with the School of American Ballet.


What changed your career trajectory?

I got injured while I was there and had to fill my days with other things, so I started taking an acting class. I was 14 at the time. I immediately fell in love with acting, and couldn’t imagine myself doing anything else. As if I needed any more convincing, my acting teacher said, “Ballerinas end their careers around the age of 35, but actors can act their whole lives.”

The more I got into acting, the more I learned that acting is a lot like ballet, but with words. It’s about emoting with every part of yourself, just like ballet. I really think that’s why it came so naturally to me. Ballet also played another important part in my acting career: If I hadn’t gone to New York for ballet, then I never would have been exposed to acting in the first place.


You wrote the script for A California Christmas. Please tell me about your passion for writing.

Oh my gosh, I wanted to be a writer long before I wanted to become an actress. I was writing my own novels from the time I was in middle school. I studied journalism at the Scripps School of Journalism at Ohio University. The plan was to complete my degree, but I ended up booking a pilot for CBS my first year of college, so I left college to do the pilot. Little did I know that pilots don’t always get picked up [laughs]. I was 18 years old, and I didn’t know how the acting world worked. I just took a leap of faith and plunged into the Hollywood pool headfirst. The screenwriting came later. Once I decided to start writing screenplays I said, “This is my second career. I’m going to work on it every day.” Every day, even if I’m just writing a scene or two, screenwriting is a part of my morning ritual. It’s such a muscle that you have to work on. So I write every day, and I love it.


You wore multiple hats on A California Christmas. Any desire to focus purely on acting in a future project?

Even though I loved to being a producer, writer, and actress on this project, it was a lot of work. I was acting in one of the lead roles, but I was also a producer, which meant I was constantly going over the scenes with the director. It was an endless stream of  “I don’t think this works. Do you think this approach works better instead? Should we change the way we handle that?” All while having to think about my character and the performance that I was trying to bring to the screen. Then, the scenes would change, and as a writer I would need to shift gears on the spot and say, “Hey guys, I think we’re going to change it to this, this and this instead of this.” I loved it, but it was definitely a lot on one plate.

So, to answer your question, I’m very excited to go into a project where I’m just the actress. I think it will feel great to count on the writer, director, and producer to do the things they need to do, while I get to focus on being an actress. Or, if it turns out another way, where I’m just the writer.


Let’s talk about your next project, Casa Grande

Casa Grande is a five-episode series that I created, and it is in production right now. The series follows several families in the farmland of Northern California as it navigates themes of class, immigration, culture and family. I think it’s my best work. I do have a team of writers, because this it is a series, so we are working together in a traditional writers room. Their names are Alex Ranarivelo and Michael Cruz, and they are amazing. The expertise that my team brings to this subject is so important, because of who I am and how I grew up. I knew that I needed to have a team around me that is an expert in this culture.

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Where did the idea for Casa Grande come from?

I was actually inspired while we were filming A California Christmas. We were filming on a big dairy farm that actually sources its cheeses to Chipotle, a place where they have hundreds and hundreds of cows, milking machines, and large fields. We would go on the set every day, and I couldn’t help but notice all of the Hispanic workers who actually lived on the property. They would be awake and working long before we got there, and they would be working after we would leave at the end of the day. What I noticed about them was just the foundation of joy that they had – the way they talked and interacted with each other, and the way their kids ran around playing. Being from Cincinnati, I had never seen that culture up close. It piqued my curiosity. I started researching and interviewing these people to learn more about them, and that’s when the idea for Casa Grande hit. I gathered a team around me that could help put story and voices to these faces, and together we came up with the pilot. I pitched the pilot, and ESX Productions jumped on it.


Given the world we live in today, Casa Grande deals with some very timely issues.

The grand theme of this series is pulling back the curtain on how the machine works. The machine being the world that we all live in. I’m just so thankful for this team of people that I have around me, because without them we wouldn’t have been able to give this series correct voices. They are experts in the community, and we had people from the community on the project, so it’s true to what’s happening right now in the world. It’s so important for people to see it.


How does Lauren Swickard stay busy when there are lulls in her schedule?

If I encounter a lull in auditions or a lull in work, I always dive into an acting class. There are so many cool acting classes in town, and that’s the place where you can challenge yourself and practice your craft. If I’m not auditioning or acting, then a class offers an outlet that I have control over. When it comes to writing, I make time every day to get my ideas out there.

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Final Question. If you had one piece of advice for other aspiring creatives, what would that be?

Whatever it is, just start doing it. Start producing your own projects, you’ll learn what to do along the way. It doesn’t matter what the finished product looks like, you just need the experience. The next thing you produce will be better because of what you’ve learned. If you aspire to write, just start writing. If your dream is to be an actor, jump in. Get involved with the local theatre. Take acting classes. Acting classes are great for so many reasons, including the ability to network with others with the same interests. There are colleges that have film schools, and there are students working on thesis projects who need actors. And don’t forget social media, YouTube, all of those sorts of things. You can do so much today that wasn’t available just a short time ago. Follow your passion and just start doing it.